[bryony]

Chrissie,
Many thank you's !
I will keep your advice handy as it surely seems that I'm feeling much better while using PM. I am at the point where I am realizing that I "need" the PM to feel good, and the breast growth truly is just a side effect..... just like the advertisements state. That side effect though, may present new challenges that I am currently not fully equipped to handle. Before starting the PM I had thought that PM might simply be like a light switch, turning only the breast growth on. Now I am seeing something totally different than that and am finding all your help to be very valuable.
Thanks again.
xo
Sirena

Hi Sirena,

you and I are in the same situation! Chrissie is right, the calming influence of PM is a classic sign of a brain that didn't get enough androgen at the development stage, and suffers gender anxiety.
See http://www.avitale.com/FAQ.htm Go down to Category 4, item 15.

For reasons I go into in the thread "An emotional few days" I am using PM to suppress my libido and live in a male guise, dealing with the breast growth as other males do gynaecomastia.

However, if your situation allows you to transition, I'm sure that would be the better option. You will definitely need support one way or the other. Again, for similar reasons to above, I choose not to attend a "real life" support group, but if you can, I'm sure that would be the better option.

Good luck!

Bryony.