[DiBi]

Hi Dibi,

this sounds very exciting. So you alternate two weeks on and off? And you remain fully functional?

Before you started on PM, did you experience anxiety? Did you find that it calmed you?

Tell me more about "lunatic"

Bryony

so far I'm functional, of course I'm keeping an eye on any change and I will adjust based on what I see, in case I can even suspend completely for a while, I'm very relaxed, and I learned in my life to never be in hurry, I have my goal but I can wait to reach it for all the time needed.

I don't experience real anxiety since several years, I may be uneasy some times, depending on the situation I'm living, in those cases I take a full breath and relax (at the end, what else can you do? anxiety and uneasiness don't help to manage situations and solve problems, in the best case)

Did PM calmed me? more than I am? I think it would mean I'm dead... :-D

It has not been like this all my life, and here comes the lunatic: since ten/fifteen years ago I was not like this, and since I have memory, up to my 30's (more or less) I've had a quite unstable mood, usually based on a monthly cycle (more or less) so that friends used to guess the moon phase based on my mood (good mood = rising to full moon, black mood =waning to new moon), I understand it may look unbelievable, but it was more or less like this, and this is why they used to say I had menses ("oh, let him be, he has his period" was a common phrase referred to me)

what happened later? I don't know exactly, I think it is a mix of things:
I've been smoking weed (and not only) for 35 years (I'm currently in a sabbatic, but I know that soon or later I'll restart with it, as I like it and in the last years helped me a lot to sleep), and this helped me to "inspect" myself and to keep anxiety under control

also I learned to keep stress and anxiety under control thanks to my job (I found myselsf in very stressful situations very often, but I like my job and so I had to get rid of stress and I actually got rid of it, or of myself, if you prefer)

and last but not least, I'm single since more than ten years, this means that I had to learn to live with yourself, and I worked a lot on myself,

I think that this is all, as of today I'm pragmatig, stressproof, relaxed, resolute in pursuing my targets (then I may be very unresolute in deciding if I want one or two teaspoon of sugar in my coffee, but that is another story ;-) ) and overall pretty content