28-11-2011, 08:27 PM
Bryony, the idea of a full transition wasn't necessarily brought on by the 6000mg of PM, but rather the personality tests that were posted on the boards. After doing them I thought about the scores that I got and what they might mean, and tried to picture what my life might be like if I was to indeed transition.
I'm not throwing the idea out the window that I may or may not be trans-sexual, and part of my reasoning behind not wanting a full transition does factor from my social conditions and my relationships, but at the same time following along with your posts I feel the same way in that my obligations to the connections in which I've established are important to me and if not for my wife I wouldn't have had the strength to come out whatsoever so my personal progression is going at a comfortable pace for now, for both me and seemingly for her as well.
Regardless, the way I see it personally is that my desire to live as either a male or female is generally 50/50 so holistically I would be better off living as both. I've never wanted to lose what I have aside from the body hair (yucky). People in my community and at work and my friends have always seen me as "feminine" and I obviously have to agree with them because yes I am feminine, but at the same time I have certain male characteristics and traits that I AM happy with at the same time.
I'm not throwing the idea out the window that I may or may not be trans-sexual, and part of my reasoning behind not wanting a full transition does factor from my social conditions and my relationships, but at the same time following along with your posts I feel the same way in that my obligations to the connections in which I've established are important to me and if not for my wife I wouldn't have had the strength to come out whatsoever so my personal progression is going at a comfortable pace for now, for both me and seemingly for her as well.
Regardless, the way I see it personally is that my desire to live as either a male or female is generally 50/50 so holistically I would be better off living as both. I've never wanted to lose what I have aside from the body hair (yucky). People in my community and at work and my friends have always seen me as "feminine" and I obviously have to agree with them because yes I am feminine, but at the same time I have certain male characteristics and traits that I AM happy with at the same time.