[bryony]

Also when taking a small break before: I noticed the desires such as cross-dressing came back, as did the urges to masturbate, and watch porn (this mirrors Sfem's experience) . On top of this: I also gave MORE attention to my breasts in a negative way -- I hawk-eyed them expecting miracle growth or looked at them with some disbelief (as to if they would grow to the size I wanted or have the appearance I was looking to attain -- not disbelief that they should be there *for clarification*).

While on PM: I don't have my breasts in mind, or my penis, or where I'm going to have sex next and how it's going down, etc etc. I mean occasionally if I'm in the proper mood I can and will think about each of these individually but for the most part my daily thought process is now focused on other things.

Yes, these are all the same reasons why I take it.

I hope you will agree, however, that if your mind started to dwell on the possibility of GRS, it would be worthwhile taking a break? Hypothetically?

From what you've said, I think that my TS brain may be further over to the female side than you. I've no doubt that if my wife had been disposed to let me live as a female, and that if I had been convincing, rather than the ugly dog that I am, that heavy use of PM would have sent me down the same path as Beverley.

This is really the purpose of my experiment. I see the one week's suffering per month as the "cold shower" / reality check that will prevent that happening.

(Apart from anything else, a monthly return to morning erections will prevent the old todger from shrivelling away! )


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