[bryony]

Being an inquisitive sort of person, perhaps these questions below are what many of us would like too know about each other,

I don't think I ever did this - but I expect you know it all now anyway!

Before and after PM, or NBE,

Sexual function, better before or after NBE or just different, ?

Loaded question. "Better" means all sorts of things!
E.g. to a normal male, "better" would mean more erections, not fewer!
Better for me means no obsessive masturbation while fantasising about being used as a female. Now, those thoughts don't even produce a stir. In fact what works 100% of the time is getting my bud rubbed by my wife, or fantasising that we are making normal love - except with the addition of my two little friends.

Before - bad. After - good.


Mental outlook, has it changed, ?
And how! No longer obsessing about my lifespan, state of the world, kids' futures, the great climate change scam etc.

Physical strength, any difference ?
Haven't noticed... it's been 4 months now.

What are your wifes views or long term partner, ?
Once I reassured her that I have no desire to present as female, her only concern is how big they will get. Me too.

How long to Buds ?
Not very. This may be because I took quite a bit of SP at the end of the 90s due to TS-induced hypochondria persuading me that I might have a swollen prostate. I think I had tiny ones hiding behind the nipples on the starting blocks.

Have any of us a tissue mass in breasts ?
Cone shaped golf balls, about 1.5" diameter.

Work issues, has it affected, anyone seen, what reasons did you provide ?

Not yet - I fill about half - 2/3 a 36A

Fitness , better or worse after start ?
Much better. I started dieting in December 2009 at 13 st (182 lbs)
Am now (Dec 2011) 11 st (154 lbs), but I lost 25% since I started PM in September. BP has dropped from high/normal to low. Cholesterol has dropped from high to normal/high.

Have you ever taken synthetics ?
nooooooooooooooooo. no blood clots for me. nor orchiectomies thank you very much.

Are you on maintenance dose or still growing ?
Still growing. A maintenance dose won't give me the mind balance I need, so I'm in it for as big as they get. 1.5" increase in 4 months....

Family , have they noticed, did you tell them or provide a cover ?
Wife knows, obviously. If/when the kids ask, I'll tell them the truth. Now that I know that I have a brain disorder, I no longer have to feel shame. And, I'm pretty sure that they wouldn't want me to suffer mentally just so I can present a physical sterotype.

Were your TG feelings early on or did they develop much later ?
I was always in my sister's jewellery box when a toddler. (She is 15 years older). When I got to puberty I found the temptation to try on my mothers stockings irresistable.

Do you have a label, ie crosdresser, TG , TS, ?
Definitely a non-presenting TS.

What are your Goals, partial, full, super stealth ?
Closet partial.

Are you more content now or are there any regrets ?
Content that I know what I have and can cope with it.
Regrets - that my mother got stressed when she was pregnant.
My two older brothers had scarlet fever and she suffered a mental breakdown. I'm guessing that's why she didn't produce enough androgen for me. It would have been wonderful not to have suffered some 50 years of gender dysphoria.


B.