05-01-2012, 08:50 AM
Hi Brittni,
I hope you wont mind me putting a few comments in here.
Firstly, the bottom line is to keep the levels of anything you take, to a minimum that gives you what you want. I seriously doubt that you can work to a figure of "9000" as some kind of magic cumulative safe limit.
Second, I think the shopping list in your OP is way over the top, and I'd basically agree with Dargona - PM + SP, plus (possibly) a prolactin source, is all you need to start. You can then play around with doses and ingredients in the future once you have a baseline to work from. However, be aware that you need to keep on the base programme for around 3 months straight, before you can expect to see anything really happening and it is no good changing things every couple of weeks because you think nothing is happening.
Many years ago, I was very similar to you at your age. I told my then fiance of my CD desires ( actually growing boobs was so impossible in those days that it wasn't even a dream). Her immediate reaction was, "With your blue eyes you'd look really good with eye shadow". The reality was very different and although she totally accepted my need to dress, she could rarely handle actually seeing me that way, and we spent the next 30 years with me trying to keep it away from her as much as possible and her trying to come to terms with it ( because we loved each other and tried to minimise each others stress, to pick up on Bryony's concerns). So what would have happened if I had been able to grow breasts back then? Difficult to say, but I can imagine that she might have agreed until she saw it happening and then got distressed about the reality. Then I'd have been stuck with knowing that I COULD grow them, but wanting to stop for her sake but having the 'boobie fairy' constantly whispering in my ear, and she would have been fighting herself for stopping me from achieving my goals - could any relationship stand those pressures? I don't know but I doubt it. So, if you are going this route at this time, you must tell any potential partner at the earliest opportunity, before either of you gets even privately committed to the other.
Also, don't forget that if you start now you will have, hopefully, 40 or 50 years at least with a chest that you can't show anyone - no swimming, no holidays on the beach or round the pool, no stripping your shirt off to do the garden in the summer, no sports activity, cringing away from anyone who might touch your front, or slap you on the back and feel your bra straps. If you have these kids that you are so anxious for, what are you going to do/say when they start climbing on you as kids do, or their friends are round and see you have a bust just like their mum?
Re the 'before and after' anxiety stuff, there is actually a third way. In actual practice, it may make no emotional type difference at all or be so small as to be negligable either way - that is certainly the case for me.
However they are not talking about normal stresses of life, as such, except in the way you react to them. Yes of course its natural to get stressed at exams or job interviews, etc, but if that stress reaction suddenly goes into overload and you simply can't face getting out of bed to deal with it, then thats a negative response. OTOH, if you normally worry about little things like did you remember to lock the door when you left home and life generally seems a bit of a struggle, but those feelings suddenly evaporate and you feel on top of the world for no apparent reason, then that would be a positive reaction.
I hope I'm not coming over as though I want to put you off, because I really don't, but I DO want you to be very aware of what you might get yourself into with this. If you start now, in 3-6 months time you will probably have changed your body in an irreversible way and you have an awful long time in front of you to live with those changes and possibly regret it, so just be VERY sure.
Take care
I hope you wont mind me putting a few comments in here.
Firstly, the bottom line is to keep the levels of anything you take, to a minimum that gives you what you want. I seriously doubt that you can work to a figure of "9000" as some kind of magic cumulative safe limit.
Second, I think the shopping list in your OP is way over the top, and I'd basically agree with Dargona - PM + SP, plus (possibly) a prolactin source, is all you need to start. You can then play around with doses and ingredients in the future once you have a baseline to work from. However, be aware that you need to keep on the base programme for around 3 months straight, before you can expect to see anything really happening and it is no good changing things every couple of weeks because you think nothing is happening.
Many years ago, I was very similar to you at your age. I told my then fiance of my CD desires ( actually growing boobs was so impossible in those days that it wasn't even a dream). Her immediate reaction was, "With your blue eyes you'd look really good with eye shadow". The reality was very different and although she totally accepted my need to dress, she could rarely handle actually seeing me that way, and we spent the next 30 years with me trying to keep it away from her as much as possible and her trying to come to terms with it ( because we loved each other and tried to minimise each others stress, to pick up on Bryony's concerns). So what would have happened if I had been able to grow breasts back then? Difficult to say, but I can imagine that she might have agreed until she saw it happening and then got distressed about the reality. Then I'd have been stuck with knowing that I COULD grow them, but wanting to stop for her sake but having the 'boobie fairy' constantly whispering in my ear, and she would have been fighting herself for stopping me from achieving my goals - could any relationship stand those pressures? I don't know but I doubt it. So, if you are going this route at this time, you must tell any potential partner at the earliest opportunity, before either of you gets even privately committed to the other.
Also, don't forget that if you start now you will have, hopefully, 40 or 50 years at least with a chest that you can't show anyone - no swimming, no holidays on the beach or round the pool, no stripping your shirt off to do the garden in the summer, no sports activity, cringing away from anyone who might touch your front, or slap you on the back and feel your bra straps. If you have these kids that you are so anxious for, what are you going to do/say when they start climbing on you as kids do, or their friends are round and see you have a bust just like their mum?
Re the 'before and after' anxiety stuff, there is actually a third way. In actual practice, it may make no emotional type difference at all or be so small as to be negligable either way - that is certainly the case for me.
However they are not talking about normal stresses of life, as such, except in the way you react to them. Yes of course its natural to get stressed at exams or job interviews, etc, but if that stress reaction suddenly goes into overload and you simply can't face getting out of bed to deal with it, then thats a negative response. OTOH, if you normally worry about little things like did you remember to lock the door when you left home and life generally seems a bit of a struggle, but those feelings suddenly evaporate and you feel on top of the world for no apparent reason, then that would be a positive reaction.
I hope I'm not coming over as though I want to put you off, because I really don't, but I DO want you to be very aware of what you might get yourself into with this. If you start now, in 3-6 months time you will probably have changed your body in an irreversible way and you have an awful long time in front of you to live with those changes and possibly regret it, so just be VERY sure.
Take care