[flamesabers]

I don't like to use labels but perhaps you would identify most as being a crossdresser with a strong feminine side considering

• You want to have hetrosexual sex with women and father children someday
  
• You would like to live as a female but also appear as a male when it's convenient for you (i.e., visiting family and going to work)
  

It seems like you have put a lot of thought about what you want and don't want in this aspect of your life. I would recommend continuing to consider your options and preferences until you feel ready to start on a particular path.