[Machadomen]

Iam very responsible trust me i get no grades under an 80 except latin :p but idk how would i go on this "journey" in my mind because i dont want to go to a doctor for this i mean i have a phychtriatic person but she thinks im 100% normal more mature and alot nicer than the ignorant immature dimwitts we call teens today... so what should i do cause i dont feel i can handel being a boy for 1 but im not going to get my penis surgically removed i dont rlly want to be married because of the rough times and inflation of these days but if a girl would accept me then i might marry her if shes nice and loving and has similar intrest i just want to look like Giavana and go through puberty with the other girls in my class but thts impossible to go the same rate as them any suggestions for things i should take? here is why i think i should be a girl

1.Im skinny and how much i eat never affects me i cant gain muscle
2.having breast and a girly figure and a butt and living a teen girl life style would be great i would feel more natural.

but yeah Like i said how do i go on this journey in my mind please give detailed steps