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Hello Mandy,

Welcome to the board.

I agree it is important to think carefully about what it is you really want before taking pm or any other feminizing herb. If you don't mind me asking, what was your original motive for taking pm? Did you just want to have your own pair of breasts and otherwise be a male who crossdresses? Or did you feel taking pm would help change your body to be in closer alignment to your gender identity?

1,000 mg of pm sounds more like a maintenance dose to me. I find it uncommon for someone to have such a rapid and drastic physical and mental response to it. I would be doubtful of any noticeable changes occurring from taking only 500 mg.

I'm also a crossdresser but pm has had the opposite effect on my crossdressing. Since starting on pm, I no longer find crossdressing to be erotic nor do I have sudden impulse to crossdress like I used to. I know some other members on the board have also reported having a decrease interest in crossdressing while taking pm. I still crossdress, it's just no longer a thrill for me.

I would say I have had some mental changes from taking pm, but nothing like the emotional roller coaster and desire to transition as you've experienced.

The experience of starting on pm as a crossdresser but then wanting to transition after taking pm for a while has been a point of discussion on these boards. I think it's a rather controversial topic about whether pm merely awakens the desire to transition in individuals like yourself, or whether the pm actually creates a need to transition.

Are you still thinking about transitioning now that you're no longer taking pm? What I wonder is do you really want to feminize your body, or are instead just thrilled/fascinated/excited about the idea of feminizing your body? There's a big difference between the two I think.

Before going back on pm, I think some questions to ask yourself are:

*Do you want to have children?
*Do you care about having a sex drive and maintaining functionality?
*How do you feel about not being able to go shirtless in public without attracting unwanted attention?
*If you decide to pursue a relationship with a female, have you thought about how she might respond to your decision to feminize your body?
*If you want to have breasts, are you willing to commit a few years or more to taking feminizing herbs?
*Is it possible sometime later in your life you might regret or be embarrassed by the irreversible feminization you have undergone?