[flamesabers]

I would say that my original motive was to feminize my body because I just wanted to, since I never 'really' thought about my gender identity before it's hard to say. It surely wasn't for that explicit purpose but could have been unconsciously so.

If you're able to get a better idea on your gender identity it might become clearer as to why you want to feminize your body.

Do you think it can have anything to do with having low testosterone?

It might. It's hard to say for sure.

Do you dress purely for erotic reasons? If you dont mind me asking.

No, I dress more for practicality and comfort.

I can tell you that I do feel more comfortable, even out in public, being somewhat 'girlish' rather then manly. I have always had trouble presenting myself in a manly manner to people I meet. Never really nailed it. Always felt like bad acting. But of course there are gentle more feminine guys who are not trans... That's how I viewed myself before this experience. Now I don't know anything anymore.

Like I said earlier, getting a better handle of your gender identity might help clear up the confusion. I think something to consider is whether feminizing your body makes you feel at peace or more like yourself, or does it make you feel more girly?

I want to ask you, as a fellow crossdresser, do you ever wear girl clothes, like, just like that. Walk around home in a semi-dressed manner? Or do you crossdress in a more 'occasion based' manner and then go back to strictly male clothing?

I don't dress really feminine if that's what you're asking. I've worn high heels to a charity event but otherwise I don't wear anything that screams feminine as everyday wear. Wearing panties and female jeans have become a regular thing for me. I do wear feminine nightwear when I sleep because I find that comfortable. I haven't had any urges to purge all of my female clothing if that's what you're wondering. In other words, when it comes to what I wear I don't go back and forth between wearing exclusively female or male clothing.

I think something else to consider is whether crossdressing more of a hobby for you or an everyday thing?