[AbiDrew85]

The thing that makes me doubt that I'm TG is that I have never, never felt I knew. I read a lot of TG people saying they always knew this, well good for you, I wish I knew too.
I have never considered this in a serious manner at all. That started with the PM experience, and at first I was like "get out, don't be ridiculous"..
I'm happy for you! So you didn't know at all at some point then?

Mandy

I think there are just as many who hid it so well from themselves that they "didn't know" as there are those who couldn't and always knew.

I first found out when I was reading the family medical encyclopedia at like 8 years old or younger or so. Before that I have no memory even now, but I'm pretty sure I'd always thought of myself in "female" terms.

I then crushed it and quelled it and sealed it deep in my subconscious, built a fortress around it, and dug a moat around my fortress. Over time, I forgot all about it, and all I knew was being lonely, depressed, and angry and just not understanding my "role" in life no matter how hard I tried.

Eventually I had a depression so severe that it almost took my life silently. I was practically comatose. When I woke up from that, I decided enough was enough and started using a mild opiate to go on a soul search and solve the problem once and for all... Yeah... And here I am now.