(31-01-2013, 01:37 PM)bryony Wrote: What you have failed to consider is that once you start on PM, you will very likely be able to cope with your condition. The powerful urge to present as a female is very likely due to an endocrine imbalance caused by androgen depletion when you were in the womb. PM will rebalance this so that the "pressing need" subsides, along with the desire to watch pornography and masturbate.
I felt that way too, but within 2 weeks of taking PM the pressures diminished.
Believe me, you are not in your right mind right now. Things will look much different after taking PM.
Bryony
Golus,
I firmly second Bryony's comments. I had thought I was either going to be anxious and very unhappy for the rest of my life, or I had to commit to losing my family. The struggle between the two was almost unbearable, and I set out on a stealth program to slowly feminize myself.
Then I discovered this forum (about 7 or 8 months in) and got off RC and on PM. Within a matter of days the gender dysphoria leveled off and then began diminishing. I'm now almost 4 weeks on my new program, and can honestly say I am at peace, calm, and happy.
I'm still unsure how far my body feminization will progress, but I no longer have uncontrollable urges to be female.
Good luck to you, and do try the PM before taking any other irreversible steps. I think, as others have already chimed in, that you will either have your desire strengthen dramatically (which will confirm that you are truly transgendered) or they will lessen and you (and your family) will be able live happily.
Misty