[Jessica Leigh]

Samcollins,

Thank you for starting this discussion.

Everyone else,

Thank you for your input. My wife knows about my cross dressing. I've dealt with it since I was 5 - or not dealt with it. She is terrified about me abandoning her and the family. She IS afraid of loosing her husband. I would never leave her, but I don't know if she could ever except me as a woman.

Just a few more pieces to my story. I have never been happy with my body. Since puberty, I hated how hairy I got, and became jealous that women could shave their legs, under arms - that it was expected of them to and for me to stay hairy. So I have lasered my chest, abs, and underarms. I hate my Adams apple and wish I still had a smooth face.

Just as importantly I work in the fitness industry and I can't have breast (although I can have a big pecs and it's ok to shave body hair -kind of). And I have no idea how negatively this would effect my business or future.

Which is why I will take all your advice, and take it slow. I do plan on seeing a therapist and joining a local support group. Samcollins I hope you do too.

Sincerely,

Golus1 aka jessica