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My quieting didn't happen until I full accepted what I was to myself.. and then enough so to make that my external reality. I don't want to deter you from making a decision to try an herbal routine, but from my own experience the (internal noise) never completely stopped. I come from a similar cultish background and also repressed my feelings to myself and those around me until after I was married with a child. Luckily I had put myself around understanding friends and my wife and I are still together, but my situation was a little different in that I never wanted a complete MtF transition. I just really wanted the female characteristics as part of my own as well.

Recently I said screw what the world around me thinks (outside of my very close circle aka wife and child) and started being fully open about myself and my feelings and being true to myself and this has been a great change. It took me a while to get there and there are plenty of fear and doubts to overcome but in the end if you find accepting people and put yourself around compassionate people you will feel great.

Good luck to you and welcome to the boards