[SarahSchilling]

Easier said than done, but you should really try to accept yourself for who you are. If you can, your panic attacks will likely disappear.

The nonsensical shame about a situation that you have little control over is much too heavy a burden to carry for the rest of your life. Then again, I was never very religious ;p

Take a few deep breaths and realize that most people don't care about your problems nearly as much as you yourself do. The way you choose to feel about them is one thing you can control.

But like I said, easier said than done. The idea of you suffering over something so trivial in the grand scheme of things saddens me, that's all.