12-03-2013, 03:54 AM
Charrie,
I got to read your post this weekend but was too busy to respond. Finally, I have a little time and want to use it to respond to your original post. First let me say I’m sorry to hear about your marriage. It is sad to see something that has surely weathered many storms taken down by this “factory defect” for lack of a better description. I’m convinced that every person ever born, bar one, was born with at least one defect. It’s too bad your wife couldn’t find it in her heart to help you carry yours rather than abandon you because of it. [pause to say thanks to the guy upstairs for a wife who has chosen to stick with me] The more I understand my own shortcomings and defects, and there are plenty, the more understanding of others I find myself to be.
I wouldn’t call myself religious but I do believe Jesus Christ is all that he says He is and I have a very real friendship with Him. Those who do not know Him deeply cannot understand this but perhaps you do and if so, I encourage you to run to Him. He, more than anyone, understands factory defects and despite them, loves us as we are rather than as we should be. I’ve struggled, pleaded constantly to have it removed, been angry about is and hated myself for days because of it but ironically, I have found some peace with my defect because even though I can’t seem to get it fixed, I have no less than One who completely understands me, cries with me at times and even enjoys my company. One thing that always brings a smile to the girl inside me is that we Christians are called the BRIDE of Christ. If I can’t be a bride in this life, at least I will be in the next!
I stand with you in your decision to remain outwardly male. I don’t judge anyone for choosing a different path but I think for those of us who are older with families, staying male for those we love and are loved by is the best thing to do all persons considered. Perhaps the adults could deal with it but I think it’s a lot for the younger ones to handle. I don’t know, I could possibly change my mind someday but in the meantime, we can encourage each other as needed.
I personally came here in early February hoping to feminize myself but was intrigued when I found out that PM might be able to mitigate my desires. I’m off to a rough start on PM (potential kidney pain, bowel irritation, strep infection and antibiotics) but am trying to find a dose that, primarily eases my GID. I’m not sure what I’ll do if I don’t get that effect or what I’ll do down the road if it ceases to have that effect. Either way, I wont be disappointed with breasts if I get them - so long as they aren’t too big, which appears hard to do with just PM.
Anyway, I hope you don’t mind me chiming in and especially hope that nothing I’ve said rubs you (or anyone else) the wrong way – especially the Jesus stuff. I’ve found everyone here to be very accepting, encouraging and polite. I hope the same is said of me. Again, welcome to the forum. I’m glad you found us and joined the conversation.
I got to read your post this weekend but was too busy to respond. Finally, I have a little time and want to use it to respond to your original post. First let me say I’m sorry to hear about your marriage. It is sad to see something that has surely weathered many storms taken down by this “factory defect” for lack of a better description. I’m convinced that every person ever born, bar one, was born with at least one defect. It’s too bad your wife couldn’t find it in her heart to help you carry yours rather than abandon you because of it. [pause to say thanks to the guy upstairs for a wife who has chosen to stick with me] The more I understand my own shortcomings and defects, and there are plenty, the more understanding of others I find myself to be.
I wouldn’t call myself religious but I do believe Jesus Christ is all that he says He is and I have a very real friendship with Him. Those who do not know Him deeply cannot understand this but perhaps you do and if so, I encourage you to run to Him. He, more than anyone, understands factory defects and despite them, loves us as we are rather than as we should be. I’ve struggled, pleaded constantly to have it removed, been angry about is and hated myself for days because of it but ironically, I have found some peace with my defect because even though I can’t seem to get it fixed, I have no less than One who completely understands me, cries with me at times and even enjoys my company. One thing that always brings a smile to the girl inside me is that we Christians are called the BRIDE of Christ. If I can’t be a bride in this life, at least I will be in the next!
I stand with you in your decision to remain outwardly male. I don’t judge anyone for choosing a different path but I think for those of us who are older with families, staying male for those we love and are loved by is the best thing to do all persons considered. Perhaps the adults could deal with it but I think it’s a lot for the younger ones to handle. I don’t know, I could possibly change my mind someday but in the meantime, we can encourage each other as needed.
I personally came here in early February hoping to feminize myself but was intrigued when I found out that PM might be able to mitigate my desires. I’m off to a rough start on PM (potential kidney pain, bowel irritation, strep infection and antibiotics) but am trying to find a dose that, primarily eases my GID. I’m not sure what I’ll do if I don’t get that effect or what I’ll do down the road if it ceases to have that effect. Either way, I wont be disappointed with breasts if I get them - so long as they aren’t too big, which appears hard to do with just PM.
Anyway, I hope you don’t mind me chiming in and especially hope that nothing I’ve said rubs you (or anyone else) the wrong way – especially the Jesus stuff. I’ve found everyone here to be very accepting, encouraging and polite. I hope the same is said of me. Again, welcome to the forum. I’m glad you found us and joined the conversation.