[spanky (aka Lola)]

This is a great discussion and, for me, quite pertinent. Although I purchased three bottles of Ainterol many months ago, I have not started taking it, largely based on the considerations of wife, children, other family and friends discussed here.

I do not know if I have GID, but the idea of having breasts, more developed hips, feminine haircut, etc., is on my mind quite a lot. I even work on responding to people in a more feminine way, mostly because I find it so much more appealing and likeable. However, I only became conscious of these feelings over the past 5 or 6 years. Before that, I don't think they even occurred to me.

As a result of the very helpful and thoughtful input from active members of this forum, including Flamesabres, I backed off NBE (FG, RC, SP) early last winter. As I said, I never started up with PM. I think this was a good decision at the time, although the tensions remain ever present. The only thing I have decided with certainty is that I remain free to jump back into NBE. Perhaps there is just no perfect answer for some of us. If I ever figure it all out, I will be a happy person, but I think the same will be true even if I do not.

By the way, I admire those who have made a thoughtful decision to go forward with NBE. It shows resolve and courage.