[Missed Miss]

Hey everyone,

I have been lurking around and reading a bit of the forums on here as I have seen it gives a lot of great information on something that I have been a lot more curious/excited about. I have had a lot of personal revelations lately, to include bisexuality. I've been really trying to figure out who I really am rather than allow myself to live in the role that assumed of me since I was born with a penis. I have had a larger and larger desire to become less masculine, and to become more feminine, which would include growing a nice set of breasts. I have a good bit of chest hair (not a sweater, but good enough) and would like to lose it without shaving it. I would actually like to lose about all of my body hair. I have been reading about PM and SP and have been considering starting them (I already have the SP and have been taking that.) I am thinking of buying a kit from Purafem to try and see where it goes.

The only thing with all of this is I in one sense I do want to become more feminine, I do not exactly like the idea of presenting myself as a female quite yet. I feel like I am trapped in my job, and that I would not really be able to face the people I work with the same if I begin to start growing breasts and showing. Even more so, I don't know how I could explain it all to my kids if suddenly daddy is wearing a bra and has girl clothes at his house. Not only that, but I still have the desire to be with women just as much, and just don't know how well transgenders appeal to most women. In the end I know that I should just be myself, and if I find a woman that would like someone like me, then that's great. I have thought about making a transition to becoming transgender quite a few times, but have never thought that it would be doable because of either being married, or my job, or whatever reason. (My marriage is about done now though which leads me to pursue this curiosity more.)

Anyway, I just felt like I needed to get myself out on the forum a bit and say hi.

Hi!
As I've just said moments ago to another newbie, I'm like you, except that I was never married and have not had kids, yet, but I'd love to!! One of the biggest reasons I was not given mones and blockers after going to Persad for 14 years is BECAUSE I'm a fence-sitter. If I could step into a machine and step out a fully functional woman moments later, I'd DEFINATELY go in a HEARTBEAT!!!! But, not going through a transition is not a "life threatening" thing for me. Nearly every time I see a good looking girl I think to myself, "DAMN, I wish I had her body!!!!" But, the other half of me also says, "DAMN, I'd love to fuck her!!!!" I'm comfortable being a guy, but, I'd MUCH rather be a girl!! So, because I'm not coming with a string of Wile E. Coyote type plans to get rid of Sir Richard Longfellow, they don't think I'm a good candidate for transition.
Anyway, good luck with your journey!! I hope you love it and love getting there in the end!! Take care!!