[jamixoxo]

Hi there, found this forum few days back.

Hi and welcome!

the 1st time I took PM was about a year back, it last a month, then i quit after realized it works! (not really prepared)
then the 2nd time I took PM was approx 6months back, it last for almost 2-months. I realized my most of my muscles gone, my skin become soft, nipples really sore, and breast growth a-bit. when I started to love my body, I quit again. I worried my mom found out and she loves me MOST, worried that I going to break her heart, and I also worried how am I going to tell my kids. *notes, my wife okay with it, and VERY supportive. helped me buy female clothes...etc. BUT i never dare to wear them except in my room.

Congratulations on having a supportive spouse! You are very lucky

Feel like I'm getting more serious this time, my brain keep on telling me I wanted a female body, and seriously I don't like my penis *wondering... is that brain re-wiring?

According to sfem's blog (http://sfemblog.wordpress.com/2013/04/29...tic-males/):
8. What is brain rewiring?

Brain-rewiring is an umbrella term describing an improved emotional state resulting from taking NBE herbs. For some, brain rewiring may mean a lessening of gender dysphoria and a loss of desire to transition. For others it may mean a decrease in sex drive, a loss of interest in crossdressing, and feeling more patient and calm. Bear in mind not everyone who takes NBE herbs experience brain rewiring.

I would say you don't have "brain rewiring", if your desire to become more feminine has not decreased, and it does not sound as if that has happened.

Is your wife ok with these deeper feelings? That's pretty strong if you went from "ok" with a penis to "hating" it!

As other's here recommend, you should consider sharing photos of your progress. It can help to hear the opinions of others.

Good Luck, and read up! There's a lot of information here.

-j