19-11-2013, 05:50 AM
(This post was last modified: 19-11-2013, 05:56 AM by SarahSchilling.)
The earliest memories I have are of going to sleep every night praying to God I'd wake up as a female. Actually, I tried pretty much any superstition that could grant wishes. Pennies in fountains, stars, whatever. I think as far back as I can remember is about 6.
It never happened though, and I lost faith in everything. When I started going to school I got picked on whenever i displayed any emotion, because the expression of it tended to be girly. So I shut those down, and as a teenager started staying fucked up all the time.
That lasted until I was about 30. Then I started taking pm and going to college, don't get fucked up anymore. I'd love to transition at some point, but it's just not an option where I am currently living and I'm kinda a coward about it.
Not sure why I decided to share this mini autobiography, but there it is lol. I still got my problems but at least I don't hate being alive anymore. Most of the time.
It never happened though, and I lost faith in everything. When I started going to school I got picked on whenever i displayed any emotion, because the expression of it tended to be girly. So I shut those down, and as a teenager started staying fucked up all the time.
That lasted until I was about 30. Then I started taking pm and going to college, don't get fucked up anymore. I'd love to transition at some point, but it's just not an option where I am currently living and I'm kinda a coward about it.
Not sure why I decided to share this mini autobiography, but there it is lol. I still got my problems but at least I don't hate being alive anymore. Most of the time.