[SarahSchilling]

Thank you for all the apologies.

I guess I just need time to figure out what I'm going to do next.



Yeah, being unable to trust people who could potentially hate you sounds like quite a problem to deal with. Perhaps joining a TG support group may help in this regard?

I'm curious to hear more on how you envy androgynous types. Sure, there may be less drama, but I think there's a lot of murky water concerning androgyny.

Support group is not an option where I currently reside. This is my support group lol

Anyways, I said I envy people drawn to androgyny in some ways. For one thing it's a much closer goal to reach, only feeling the need to go halfway, in a sense. For another, it involves much less surgery, therefore much less money. I'd also imagine you have to endure not quite as much ridicule. (Although, being somewhat androgynous myself currently, I can attest to it possibly being worse at points.) Finally, it's hard for me to envision having a burning desire to be androgynous. Like an all consuming sense of undying thirst to be directly between sexes. The kind of feeling I get about being a woman when I take breaks from estrogen lol..although it's always there for me, E just dulls it, but that's another topic altogether ;p

There's just much less of a negative social connotation to it than full fledged transgendered people, I suppose. Then again, I'm sure it's different for everyone, so I don't mean to generalize. Also, it's probably tougher to deal with than I think it is.

Grass is always greener, after all.