[GoneGirl]

Welcome ClaraKay, it's good to have you here!

...and like you [I] have been ambivalent on aspects of feminization.

Thank you, AnnabelP, for welcoming me to the forum.

Yes, the ambivalence I feel is probably due to some fear that I'm acting out a crossdreaming fantasy that I may someday come to regret. I'm going ahead with my plan anyway because not doing so, and returning to a state of mental angst, is definitely something I do not want to do.

To hedge my bets, I'm taking a cautious approach by doing what I can to minimize the loss of male function even as I preserve the mental benefits I'm getting from taking the PM. I don't want to burn any bridges just yet.

I know that any growth of breast tissue is permanent, but, honestly, at my age I can't imagine that much growth is possible, but if it happens, and I later find that I can't live with it, there's always surgery.

The thing is, I don't think this foray into NBE is just a whim on my part. I sense there's much more to it than that. As well as the calming effect PM has had on my brain, other changes have occurred that have led to big improvements in my marriage relationship. My wife an I are rediscovering joys of sex!

So, I'm experimenting with taking cold-turkey PM breaks each month, and supplementing the PM dosage with Butea Superba. Both seem to be working well enough for me to achieve an erection when the need arises. (Even morning wood has come back on BS.) It's the desire to keep that ability which tells me that I am not TS. Does that make sense?

BTW, I was so sorry to see Bryony drop off the forum. I saw him as a kindred soul and a huge help to me on starting my program. If you are still following the forum, Bryony, thank you, thank you!