10-01-2014, 08:17 PM
(10-01-2014, 04:25 PM)ClaraKay Wrote: I was always in denial of my fem self, and tried to do everything a man is expected to do. I did okay except when it came to sex. I could perform as a normal man, but with no real passion, no abandon. Copulatory sex was another form of masturbation for me, heavily dependent on mental imagery and fantasy, and often anxiety ridden. Not every love making attempt was successful, and that left me frustrated, humiliated, and remorseful. I'm sure my wife could sense something was wrong (she was not inexperienced sexually), and had misgivings over my sexual shortcomings. It was our mutual love for each other that kept us together. I don't believe there was any straying, either.
CK
Things were much the same for me, up until the last 2 sentences. There was straying if it managed to last past "Let's just be friends"
Ah well, I guess I should just be happy I wasn't stuck playing a role that I was so uncomfortable in anyway.