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It seems that we are all in different positions over our relationships with our wives. I should say that my wife is very feisty and 15 inches shorter than me. We first met because she beat me out for the first job (other than summer jobs) I was competing for, and it was only because of an unexpected second vacancy that I got taken on by the same firm a short time later. My wife to be already had significant previous experience which I didn't, while I at that time also had a speech impediment (probably a result of my GID). It was a very old-fashioned firm that had never previously hired a woman in a professional capacity. She got a room to herself, while I was put in the corner of the room of one of the senior partners, but I was paid more. I was required to take my coffee breaks out of the partner's room, in practice in my wife-to-be's room, where I learned an immense amount about the job and fell hopelessly in love. Hopeless because my brain told me I needed to be the pursued rather than the pursuer and there was no way I could bring myself to make any kind of advance to her. Eventually she found ways around this, but that is another story and even more OT. I should say that neither of us was a lawyer, but I later ended up a partner in a multidisciplinary partnership (a way for a law firm to bring in specialists in other professions) and my wife(by then) had various contracts with large law firms.

Such firms seem to have in common that they believe that the laws of contract don't apply to them, a problem that she was quite prepared to tackle head on where necessary. The managing partner of one firm told my wife that she 'was not a team player' i.e. she didn't go along with his proposals, but it got back to us later he described her to colleagues as 'one tough lady'.

So this tough lady knows about my breast growth and that I am taking things to encourage it, but uncharacteristically she seems somehow to slide away from my attempts to discuss my gender issues (this tends to be her way when she feels that I'm being unduly obsessive about something, but may be discomfort). Certainly she reckoned that I might have embarrassed our Nurse Practitioner when I touched on the subject at our last appointment. It doesn't stop her playing with my breasts in bed (sometimes rather roughly) but I don't feel that it's something with which she is really comfortable. Since she has always insisted that she has no lesbian tendencies, that could be the reason. The very fact that I was able to bring up the issue with the NP speaks to the mental effects on me of PM (surely it could not just be low testosterone).

When I read this thrEad fully I can firmly say without hiding any thing that I never had any such feelings . I was typical horny kid who did what all boys did but have always been more sensitive and not so aggresive . Yet I am very competetive and can be agreesive to a point . I believe stress probably brings changes in you . I did read somewhere that mothers who are under stressful condition give birth to GID babies . My situation started about 1997 while taking on a competitor I also added extra bows to my string in my business . I was working anything upto 14 hour day . I developed all sort of illnesses related. To stress . It is during this period I started wearing ladies underwear / corsets / stockings . Corsets came in handy for releif of stomach cramps , and stockings to cover my legs due to application of cream for eczema . When I suffered heart palpitation my doc advise was this is a sign either slow down or get ready for hole. In ground . Sold my non core business taking loss of 150k pounds n decided to slow down. That was back in 2004 . Aggresor in me didn't keep quiet for long and I. Went for total demolition and rebuild my existing business property which came to fruition 5 yrs ago . Over a year ago I was diagnosed with RA and the scare came when nodules in lungs grew by 66% . My. Doc reconed they are RA nodules but for safety biopsy was best . I took herbal route to help my RA . And changed my diet . Luckily when I was under the scanner on day of biopsi to put guide wire in lung they found my nodules had shrunk hence no BIG C . Reading more on herbs I was taking they are pythogens and sparked my intreast in breast growth !!
So here I am !! Contradiction !! Labeles !! GID !!
In my heart of heart I know that I want more feminine body but no transition . I am still weded to my male identity !!
MayBe I am weird . But that is what I am