[Jessica Leigh]

Since this poll came out I have really had a hard tie sleeping at night. I am torn between the family I love and the person I'm hiding. I really want to say 'Fuck it!' I'm going to be a woman. I know I can do it. But with two children to support I just can't risk it. Even if in truth, my wife is the real breadwinner of the household. Money is tight. She is stressed. I'm stressed.

I tried searching the web for ways to bring up the topic of Daddy wants to be a girl and found a site made up of wives whose husbands (ex's) left them and the kids. It was real discouraging. The women were so distraught and who could blame them.

This sucks. I'm so torn up inside. Baby is crying. Back to my other life.