19-01-2014, 08:56 PM
Jessica, I am so sorry things are so tough. I wish I could offer a good suggestion. 
Please forgive me, as I am no counselor, but I think we sometimes have to place our own desires on hold in order to take care of the ones we love. It sucks, but it can be tolerable. And that, I believe, is what we sign on for when we commit to a marriage.
What is most important to you? You have a family that seems to depend on you. And then you have what desires and needs you have yourself.
You need to decide which is more important to you. Is it acting on your own needs, or is it taking care of your family?
Once you answer that question you will, I think, know what to do.
Sorry you are in such a bad place, sweetheart. I wish I could help more.
Please forgive me, as I am no counselor, but I think we sometimes have to place our own desires on hold in order to take care of the ones we love. It sucks, but it can be tolerable. And that, I believe, is what we sign on for when we commit to a marriage.
What is most important to you? You have a family that seems to depend on you. And then you have what desires and needs you have yourself.
You need to decide which is more important to you. Is it acting on your own needs, or is it taking care of your family?
Once you answer that question you will, I think, know what to do.
Sorry you are in such a bad place, sweetheart. I wish I could help more.