[flamesabers]

Thanks for the meaningful response to my question, Flame.

Your welcome.

Yes, I'm familiar with JulieTG's posts, Bryony's, too. Both were at loggerheads with their his and her genders. Neither posts anymore so I assume some kind of resolution was achieved.

I'm not sure what happened with those two either.

We look for ways to convince ourselves and others that we are worthy of our assigned sex.

This is a very alien concept for me.

We learn to reject all girlish things, even girls themselves until the hormones flow. We strive to avoid all effeminate behavior for fear of teasing and humiliation.

So I wasn't suppose to enjoy playing with my sister's toys when I was a kid? When I was away from home and on a long car ride or something, I was happy my sister would bring along a portable toy like Polly Pocket. It fits in your pocket. You open it up and can play with one or two miniature dolls in a small house or whatever. How cool of a toy is that for a young kid in the early 90s!

I want to be like you, Flame. Comfortable being who I am as both a man and a woman. Not tormented by constant sexual urges. Not on edge, anxious and impatient. Not afraid to embrace things that I'm attracted to that happen to be considered 'feminine'. You've always been that way, so it's natural for you, Flame. I have to learn to be a girl from scratch. Not easy for this old dog.

CK

I also was a good student during my childhood years. I remember being a rather quiet, sensitive and obedient child. I recognized these traits were much more common with girls than boys. This never bothered me nor was it something I tried to rationalize or be in self-denial about. I never wanted to be the loud, rough and tumble kind of person a lot of the boys were. It just wasn't me. I suppose all this helped with establishing my feelings of solidarity with females.

Have you tried something like spearmint to help taper your sexual urges?