[Lisa Lou]

Some men are men at heart and know it, some men are not and show it. Others, like I, look and act like men (or at least try to) but it doesn't come naturally. So we try very hard to master the art of manliness. We start as young boys, wanting to be what's expected of us. We look for ways to convince ourselves and others that we are worthy of our assigned sex. We learn to reject all girlish things, even girls themselves until the hormones flow. We strive to avoid all effeminate behavior for fear of teasing and humiliation.

CK

Oh, so very, very true CK. Except for the archery and swim team (gotta love it - BREAST STROKE!) my formative years parallel yours and Samantha's, mine sports were track and basketball. I was pretty good at track, cause I had lots of practice running from bullies , and I swear can remember picturing that during races. Growing up a a deeply religious Southern Baptist home, I learned guilt and obedience very well! Everything was black and white, I was a male, so I did male things... PERIOD. To escape my feminine tendencies I went into the Army after college and had a 27 year career, 12 of that in Special Operations Command... I was a man's man, except of course when I went home, went into my bedroom, opened my CD bag, and emerged as Lisa .I can remember wearing camisoles and pantyhose under my uniforms, and going on jumps, with the twisted tension of having a bad landing, breaking something and winding up in the hospital getting my uniform cut off in the emergency room.... SURPRISE! I think subconsciously I wanted that to happen so I could quit my double life lie... of course I would have also been a civilian rather quickly!

So now I am content to accept who I am, hide it most of the time, but revel in the fact that I do love me and my nascent breasts, knowing that if they do actually grow noticeably I can always call 'em old man moobs! The only issue I am contemplating is a marathon I'm training for next fall... BUT, I'll cross that bridge when I come to it! Might be kind of funny if the girls are a B cup by then!

CJ, Sorry to hijack your thread on taking a break, but had to share my experience on your and Samantha's history.

Hugs and Encouragement,
LL