[SarahSchilling]

I can certainly identify with being concerned about my weight, but it's not a new thing, simply increased the past year I guess. I still lose out to hunger though, I can't lose any weight after gaining a bunch after quitting smoking. Well 20lbs when you weighted 115 is a bunch ;p

Anyways, I'm just going to go ahead and say that my female urges are growing stronger by the day. Now, I seem to be obsessed with going out in full-fem mode, like the kind I take pictures in lol. It's like everytime I have an urge to do something, I do it....and the urge just shifts to something more bold. It's kinda scary. I know where this ends up, which doesn't bother me...but I feel I'm not even in control of it. It's like I have some kind of subconscious transition coach that is very demanding lol. Not that it's very hard to convince myself.

Just to clarify, I'm getting no kind of sexual gratification out of this, and its not an exhibitionist thing either, as I honestly don't want the attention of other people IRL. Just some kind urge telling me to go farther and farther down the rabbithole, and the thought of doing it makes me happy.

Ah well....it's weird. Guess I'll just enjoy the ride.