[Samantha Rogers]

Is it just me, or do a whole whale of a lot of us seem to come from homes where there was a failed marriage, broken home, abusive parent or something along those lines? That's not being facetious.
I wonder how many secretly believe, deep inside, that we were the cause somehow? No way to know, short of deep therapy or hypnosis, but I wonder what gets buried really deep in the child's mind. As kids we can't see that it isn't our fault. As kids we just feel the pain. I gotta think we just want it to all be better, for the pain to go away. Of course it doesn't because we are kids and we don't control anything. But we internalize it, turn it back on ourselves when it is't our fault, turn it into guilt, and then bury it where there is no easy way to see it much less fix it (without help). It would just sit there, like a virus, running silently in the background of a computer, but getting more and more twisted with time, humming along in some ugly little back corner of the mind, and causing God knows how much unconcious anguish while affecting our choices and decisions in ways we may never know. Opening otherwise inexplicable needs...
Not saying that is always what it is, but I wonder how often something like that is at work. I wonder...
Kids are not to blame. They are just kids.
Thats why I really, really like hugs.
That little kid is always, always still in there somewhere, and alone and frightened and not knowing what the fuck is going on. No matter how old we get.
But that kid understands a hug. A hug is good.
Hugs, Scotty, hugs, kid!