[GoneGirl]

Amanda, honey, the desire to dress never goes away, it just changes.
Before PM, for many of us, dressing was complicated by testosterone and libido. The same kind of evil impulses that lead to porn cravings and addiction, which many of us wrestled with in the past.
Adding E to the chemistry of a bio male causes, reportedly, one of two different reactions. If you do not have genuine TG tendencies you will likely not like how you start to feel. You may experience anxiety etc. But if you do have TG feelings then you will become more contended and your sense of well being will increase.
If that occurs, the NEED to crossdress will be reduced, as you will begin to simply feel more feminine and not need to externalize it as much. It is a good thing.
But the desire does not go away, only the need, the compulsion.

That's so well stated, Sammie. It's a huge distinction. Crossdressing can be a fetish or a manifestation of one's gender identity. It's often hard to tell which until the introduction of estrogen therapy. But, you have to watch out for the false negatives. It's not unusual to feel panic when physical changes begin. It doesn't necessarily mean you have no TG leanings. Best to stay with the program until you are sure. Early mental and physical changes are largely reversible.

Anyone have those early second thoughts like I did? Thanks to the experiences of others here on this forum, I didn't panic, but I came close.

Clara