03-02-2014, 02:55 PM
I'm so happy everyone contributed in expressing there feelings. When I growing up my sexual talk from my dad was " here son I will show you an x-rated movie". That is how I first learned about sex. For me masturbation started out at a very young age.
I always felt emotional helping people caring about there feelings. I was not easy growing up my father was an alcoholic would always put me down . Hurt my mom
physical and emotional. I never told any one about this , but when I was younger I use to take showers with my dad on time which really hurt me. He told me you are kinda small down there in the private area. I did not think much of it at the time.
but later in life after a guy almost raped me. By sending me mixed messages of porno movies playing while he came on to me. By coming in back of me first starting to play with my nipples and messing with my mind. Then everything just grew from there which let for me giving oral sex to him. half way through I ran out of his house.
to top it off the kid that was doing this to me , was my best friend. I, m about 5".5 inches in my privates I'm not that small. But because of the mixed messages I started developing insecurities and shyness. So my learn in school was not up to standards so I was put in special education . What really hurt the class room was in the regular school . You can see how that worked out I got picked on was called many names . All this played a big part when I got older when I went on dated .
I could not relax around woman and I brought the wrong signals out to them. Istarted thinking I was gay. This is a on going problem and because of my dad addictions it was like a shield that covered all this up about my problems. I started taking control got into self help books . Working out I got a black belt in diffrent martial arts. Worked on building up my body did p90x and all that.
But I never could relax sexually around woman . The masturbation did not help there is a lot more to this story . It feels good to talk about it. Then I looked into pm read about . I really love how I'm more relaxed around people now I can really open up more . I guess its the girl side of me allowing me to do this through taking pm. Nobody knows this side of me except you girls. Thank you for giving me this time to talk about it .
sincerely
Robbin
I always felt emotional helping people caring about there feelings. I was not easy growing up my father was an alcoholic would always put me down . Hurt my mom
physical and emotional. I never told any one about this , but when I was younger I use to take showers with my dad on time which really hurt me. He told me you are kinda small down there in the private area. I did not think much of it at the time.
but later in life after a guy almost raped me. By sending me mixed messages of porno movies playing while he came on to me. By coming in back of me first starting to play with my nipples and messing with my mind. Then everything just grew from there which let for me giving oral sex to him. half way through I ran out of his house.
to top it off the kid that was doing this to me , was my best friend. I, m about 5".5 inches in my privates I'm not that small. But because of the mixed messages I started developing insecurities and shyness. So my learn in school was not up to standards so I was put in special education . What really hurt the class room was in the regular school . You can see how that worked out I got picked on was called many names . All this played a big part when I got older when I went on dated .
I could not relax around woman and I brought the wrong signals out to them. Istarted thinking I was gay. This is a on going problem and because of my dad addictions it was like a shield that covered all this up about my problems. I started taking control got into self help books . Working out I got a black belt in diffrent martial arts. Worked on building up my body did p90x and all that.
But I never could relax sexually around woman . The masturbation did not help there is a lot more to this story . It feels good to talk about it. Then I looked into pm read about . I really love how I'm more relaxed around people now I can really open up more . I guess its the girl side of me allowing me to do this through taking pm. Nobody knows this side of me except you girls. Thank you for giving me this time to talk about it .
sincerely
Robbin