[PerkyAcups]

We haven't communicated in years either.  To be honest, I could tell our marriage was in trouble. We just weren't connecting anymore.  I finally took responsibility for my faults.  I forced myself to have uncomfortable conversations with my wife about many things and made noticeable efforts to fix those things.  She could see the efforts and responded very positively.  Our marriage has greatly improved in the last few months.  I would say we are both happy again.  

It is still hard for me to start conversations with her about some things, but once it is out there, I feel better.  So yesterday and today I have been wearing the new pair of panties I bought.  They felt so good on me and natural. All day I was worrying how I am going to tell her I like wearing them and want more.  I thought about writing a letter or texting to get the conversation started.  Finally today we were talking in the kitchen. I pulled the front of my pants down enough to show the pink panties.  I said, look I am wearing my new underwear.  She kind of giggled. I said I really like them.  I want some more. She said okay, we can get you some speedos or something. I said, no I would prefer these female ones.  They are comfortable and I like wearing them. She said okay.  I ordered a few more pairs this afternoon.  

I have been working on growing breasts for several years.  But other than shaving my chest and armpits and wearing a bra that is all i have done to femininize.  I didn't even really know if I wanted more.  Putting the panties on with my freshly shaved legs seemed to complete the package.  fully smooth, bra, panties.  I am really like embracing my female side.  I am seeing myself in a new way.  

I am still myself on the outside. Put on my boots and jeans over my panties and bra, got in my truck and went to work.  I am loving this balance all of the sudden. I feel everything is aligned.

[huckleberrywine]

I'm so happy for you! Facing those tough discussions is difficult.  She sounds like an open minded woman.  Mine, not so much. Although I recently purchased a Braun epelator and she didn't give me too much grief. btw- that epelator is the cat's pajamas for keeping the stubble at bay.

[PerkyAcups]

happy new year!  My wife and I had some breakthrough conversations last night.  I saw a fun side of her I hadn't seen.  When walked in the kitchen after getting home from a party. She said, 'Take your pants off'.  When I started to unzip she saw my underwear and said, 'so i can see you in my pink panties'.  I replied, my panties. She said take your pants off and go sit on the couch so I can see.  I recently told her I like to be submissive so this was perfect.  

I'll skip some of the good stuff. We ended up talking for a long time again about if i want to be a female.  I again assured her I didn't. But this time I finally told her, I did have a feminine side.  I shaved my legs to look more feminine.  I liked wearing panties.  I was really honest and tried to make sure everything was said. She asked if I ever wore her make up or wanted to wear her clothes.  I told her no. I liked how i presented myself on the outside.  She asked if I would wear her silk pink floral robe in the house. I said in the house, yes. She said go put it on and come back.  We continued the conversation for a while with me naked under her robe.  She then said stop talking I want to watch you.  I said okay, can I keep shaving my legs? And start wearing panties everyday? And keep wearing your robe?  She said yes, stop talking I want to watch you.

It was such an amazing night.  I have been so open and honest about everything recently. For some reason me not telling her directly I am trying and want to look feminine felt like i was keeping a secret from her.  That was one more big weight lifted off of me.  

This morning, I was wearing her silk robe when she came in.  Picking up my bra and pink panties off the living room floor to get dressed.  Just like a female after a night of partying.  I am feeling so good today. Like a new chapter in my life is beginning.  My female feelings aren't a fantasy anymore.  My wife is fully aware, and I can nurture and explore my feminine side without shame and secrecy.  I am free to get up in the morning and find a cute pair of panties to wear.  I don't have to feel embarrassed or guilty about shaving my legs.  My life without shame starts today.  Fitting to be New Year's Day.  

It is a little scary though.  I have carried a tough guy persona my whole life even while my breasts were growing and I was removing body hair.  I know my wife loves me and all of that, but after last night she will always associate some sort of femininity with me.  She knows I am caring these strong female feelings.  It feels great her knowing. A little scary not being able to put the Jeanie back in the bottle.

[huckleberrywine]

That's fantastic, starting the year off an a positive note!  You're very fortunate to have such a loving and understanding wife, my friend! 

Happy New Year, Perky!

[ne0nish]

happy new year!  My wife and I had some breakthrough conversations last night.  I saw a fun side of her I hadn't seen.  When walked in the kitchen after getting home from a party. She said, 'Take your pants off'.  When I started to unzip she saw my underwear and said, 'so i can see you in my pink panties'.  I replied, my panties. She said take your pants off and go sit on the couch so I can see.  I recently told her I like to be submissive so this was perfect.  

I'll skip some of the good stuff. We ended up talking for a long time again about if i want to be a female.  I again assured her I didn't. But this time I finally told her, I did have a feminine side.  I shaved my legs to look more feminine.  I liked wearing panties.  She asked if I ever wore her make up or wanted to wear her clothes.  I told her no. I liked how i presented myself on the outside.  She asked if I would wear her silk pink floral robe in the house. I said in the house, yes. She said go put it on and come back.  We continued the conversation for a while with me naked under her robe.  She then said stop talking I want to watch you.  I said okay, can I keep shaving my legs? And start wearing panties everyday? And keep wearing your robe?  She said yes, stop talking I want to watch you.

It was such an amazing night.  I have been so open and honest about everything recently. For some reason me not telling her directly I am trying and want to look feminine felt like i was keeping a secret from her.  That was one more big weight lifted off of me.  

This morning, I was wearing her silk robe when she came in.  Picking up my bra and pink panties off the living room floor to get dressed.  Just like a female after a night of partying.  I am feeling so good today. Like a new chapter in my life is beginning.  My female feelings aren't a fantasy anymore.  My wife is fully aware, and I can nurture and explore my feminine side without shame and secrecy.  I am free to get up in the morning and find a cute pair of panties to wear.  I don't have to feel embarrassed or guilty about shaving my legs.  My life without shame starts today.  Fitting to be New Year's Day.  

It is a little scary though.  I have carried a tough guy persona my whole life even while my breasts were growing and I was removing body hair.  I know my wife loves me and all of that, but after last night she will always associate some sort of femininity with me.  She knows I am caring these strong female feelings.  It feels great her knowing. A little scary not being able to put the Jeanie back in the bottle.

That's amazing!! That must feel so good for you, a big weight that falls of your back!

[tomi66]

That's great news, it doesn't always end up like you two, I am so happy for both of you.

When I first met my wife she knew all about me, shaved legs, underarms, panties, everything, so it never has been a big deal for me. But we keep it in the house, for the most part. She's afraid for me if I go out dressed up.

I tell you that I completely understand keeping the masculine side too, there's something about putting on jeans and work boots in the morning doing a rugged job but wearing my panties underneath bring a whole new aspect to the job