[Heaven's Night]

Isn't that what transition means? I don't like the way its been diluted into eternal existence. Its a phase that has beginning and a goal and in the end its over, its done... Like it used to be, transition is a phase and in the end "trans" ends and cis begins. (That's the original meaning of the terms btw, look it up.) I will one day stop being transsex once its all done. I find it weird that transition doesn't seem to mean a shift from A to B any more. I don't get it, but I guess I'm too binary and simple ones and zeros to get it. lol.

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DiDi, 

Makes so much more sense to me now, I guess I just didn’t understand. I just know how I feel inside and I desperately want to make it right and live the life I deserve.

Thanks DiDi and Shirazmn for giving me a great appreciation of my life.

Caylee

[wee2er]

Thanks for the clarity  

Lara & Shira you are absolutely correct transition is an A~B, beginning and end journey, which I see and admire from a far in you Lara, Caylee and lots more.

There's no intention to dilute, it was simply a question I posed to myself 'Am I really / secretly wanting to transition?". 

I must admit, it was a bit of a silly if not stupid question as I detest putting anyone in boxes or to label them, but I knew that I would get some fantastic thoughts and clarity by sharing, so thanks to all who took time to reply, they are all much appreciated. 

My path has always been more an A~Z journey, always wanting to learn, improve and be the best person that I can be for me and my two daughters.

For NBE there is no specific set goal(s), only that:
- Body wise to have nice fem shaped B cup breasts and matching lower half
- Continue to enjoy not being T driven and what higher E is doing for my mind and body - total chillaxed, able to concentrate more, more energy, happier in myself, better skin, etc

Which all clearly doesn't align with the A~B context of transitioning, so I'm not trans or transitioning. 

Maybe Shira is right, maybe I'm non-binary? But then again, I'm not going to put myself in any particular box!

So, I'm going to continue enjoying my (steam) train journey heading to a destination unknown, to wherever it takes me  

Ta,

[Heaven's Night]

I think you very likely fit easily being non binary. Because normies do not need to change their bodies like that... Trans people do. Makes me think of my faince, she's non binary, although not looking for active transition due to its difficulty. Some times she's quite masculine, totally thinks like a dude very often and what not. It often feels like she's actually my boyfriend, but then again, its not that simple. People aren't simple ones and zeros all the time, I think us who's experience is binaray, life does work in a more simple manner. I don't need to wonder what kind of transition to do when its the total conversion sex change operation by all means possible. That's simple. Non binary existence somewhere between or in a flux is can be far more complicated.

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I personally like the idea or definition by DiDi A to B with B being my personal victory. But once I achieve B sadly my wife (who is cis gender) and Caylee will be labeled by society as LESBIAN. I personally don’t care but I don’t know how my wife will feel.

She reassures me that she’s 100% committed to our marriage. The other night with tears in her eyes she pleaded with me to finish the transition and achieve B.

So I’m all in.

Wee2er  I like your A to Z for people who are not transitioning.

Caylee

[Heaven's Night]

There's nothing sad or wrong for being lesbian. Did you realise that people will see YOU as lesbian too? And for a good reason because that's what your relationship transitions to along with your transition.

I've faced this same weirdness, I wonder how my exs feel about it? They must realise that they were dating an under cover woman all that time... Must make some straight girls heads spin.

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Stopping and thinking about it who cares. It’s just a label of society and I’m figuring out real quick we are the normal ones and society is screwed up.

Thanks

[CM213]

Every woman I've ever been in a relationship with have all said that I'm not like any other man they have ever dated or been in a long term relationship with... Hmm I wonder why lol. But I wonder if they only knew, would they still see the same nice guy, loving, caring, thoughtful, generous person they fell in love with or would all that somehow be erased from their minds when they discover I'm a woman.... 

Almost thought my wife fell into that category. Sometimes I feel she does but I know it's just her emotions getting the better of her. Just takes some time.

[wee2er]

Lara - I remember that you have mentioned that in past threads, I so dearly miss not having a woman in my life, I reckon you two were made for each other and are a perfect match.
I've never considered myself non-binary and at this moment I don't think I am, but I'm clearly not a  'normies'  

Caylee - thanks and yes A~B for transition like you, Lara and others have set your hearts on achieving, which is really something, I certainly admire you all.
Whereas, A~Z is definitely the journey I'm on, where it takes is anyone's guess, but I do intend to enjoy not only the ride but the scenery as well  

CM213 - funny, that's been said about me  

It'll be interesting to see what my bloods come back as at the end of the month!

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Wee2er

Thinking I may take some time away from BN to chill.

My mood swings are so bad, how bad are they, there’s not a ( ucking) roller coasters on earth that’s like this ride.

Caylee