I might be a bit absent in coming days. I'm having to let my old dear dog walk the rainbow bridge tomorrow. His legs are giving up and he needs a lot of help going out and even reaching his food bowl. He's also nearly completely blind and has obvious blood sugar issues... Poor puppy is still so happy from the simplest things.
I took this photo of him yesterday morning, he loves to lay down in sun so much. Not more needed for a silly happy grin despite everything. Rascal has been my best friend for almost ten years and its breaking my heart. I feel like I have to euthanise my child. When he came home with me he fit inside my jacket, now he's old and tired. Keeps asking me to help him reach his food and water, same with the stairs outside, I've been carrying him back inside for a while as he's too weak to climb the stairs on his own.
I've been hurt before losing a pet, but this time its worse, Rascal was a companion rather than a pet. I've been spoiling him so much lately, doing everything for him, extra cuddles, treats, carrying him over the stairs, giving him his waterbowl so he doesn't need to try to get up when it hurts. Timing is really bad for me. My transition has taken such toll, I've lost nearly all old life friends and now I'm losing the dearest of them, one who doesn't judge or care about anything stupid. I can't be selfish to keep him around as all there would be is slow suffering to the point where he can't walk at all. I have to let him go.
I love him so much.