(06-11-2013, 06:35 AM)PattiJT Wrote: I never intended to be an example in the beginning. just trying to find me. I never realized how much having breasts would change pretty much everything about me down the road. They have expanded (no pun intended) my way of thinking and how I look at so many things. So many interconnected causes and effects. I look back, and it seems like I was a close-minded simpleton with no idea at all what I was really getting into. I just knew I had to try to grow boobs, or forever feel like I had missed the boat my whole life. I feel like a different being now, with a completely new set of thought processes and ways of looking at most things. It's a ball, now that I've come to terms with following them around all the time. And they make it so pleasant to be led. I would draw a stupid analogy, like when we bought our first riding mower. My first thought upon using it was "why the hell didn't we do this a long time ago??" Same thing occurs every time I touch, feel, or see my little friends. Why oh why didn't I do this sooner? They make my wife laugh sometimes, too, when she catches me glancing in a mirror when I walk by. But, truth be told, part of it is sort of me confirming they're still there, cause I never expected this to happen in my lifetime. They will bring about a lot of changes, understand that, and be prepared! Patti
Patti & all,
I can't stop thinking about what Patti has said here, especially the thing about "whole new thought processes". She says having breasts has done that to her and that's really cool. I can completely relate and have to say I've experience what I think is a similar "mind warp". My mind warp however, seems to have come first, starting 3-4 years ago and now it has totally transformed my way of thinking about myself and others ...and instigated my pursuit of being true to myself and more specifically NBE. When I look back at myself 3 years ago and beyond, I'd have to say I too was a close minded simpleton. I didn't like myself, couldn't understand why anyone else would like me and frankly, always found something to dislike in others around me (not proud of that). And while I TRIED to accept others, I knew deep down that I really didn't and didn't really know why. Perhaps it was because I didn't feel loved and couldn't love myself that I had no love to give to others. The push that set this transformation in motion is very personal but I've alluded to it in other threads and places. The bottom line, and similarity to Patti, I think, is feeling accepted and accepting myself has fueled a love for others that rocks my world and blows me away.
For example: I was never really comfortable with transsexuals or transsexualism (very strange I know considering who I am). But once I felt accepted (as I am, not as I should be), I felt so relieved I literally bawled my eyes out several times and soon compassion for myself and others like me began to swell. It has overflowed now and is going farther than I ever imagined, well beyond "myself and others like me". All the stigma's and ailments, abnormalities and stereotypes people love to hate matter far less to me than ever before. People and relationships are ALL that matter now whether you're a guy with breasts, a homosexual or lesbian, a transsexual, nerd or outcast, it matters not (more categories coming soon I hope). I'm finally beginning to see past the wrapper and into the person. It's truly revolutionary ...awesome ...amazing! I love it and hope it never stops. I feel free now. Free to be myself and free to care about others no matter what. I love it and I hope it never stops blowing me away. ...And if herbs have anything to do with it (and I think they do) I'm going to have a lot to hide or a lot of explaining to do someday.