Okay, thanks for explaining that, Sammie. I seem to be stuck in the old fashion notion of these professionals acting as 'gatekeepers': No, you can't do that, or okay, I'll allow this. That puts you in the drivers seat which is a nice place to be when you are on a journey.

I hope the higher dosage works out better for you, hon.

Clara

Clara...my endo (tee hee) has stated to me time after time that this is all about me and how I feel and that he is just there to assist me in finding where I want to be,but in a healthy manner.
He is not concerned about health at present because all my vitals keep coming back extremely strong...liver, kidneys, cholesterol etc.
He was not so much prescribing 8mgs a day but rather, since I had told him I was using sometimes 5 or 6, making sure that if I wanted to go higher than4 that I would not run out before seeing him again. Also, he is aware that buying in larger amounts is more cost effective.
Isnt he wonderful?

Sammie, how lucky you are to have found such an enlightened endo. I'm really happy for you, and real hugs - at least as real as they can be over the internet My only regret is that you seem to have got so far ahead of me and I suspect a lot of your other sisters here that I don't think I could ever catch up even if my relationship with my one and only (O&O) were not even more important to me. I am astonished to find that I really regret that I do not presently see how I can join the group at Southern Comfort at least this year - that's an awfully long way I've come from where I started and it worries me a bit - it is indeed as you say 'a wild ride', and I do have to calm my O&O's insecurities so thst we can discuss my gender issues more constructively I suppose in a way that the scary aspects of all this have something akin to a fairground ride - enjoyable but frightening, except for a much lesser degree of certainty that the outcome of what one is doing is safe and predictable. Anyways, enjoy the ride.

Oh, Annie, please...you simply must try to join us! It would be so much fun! I want to meet you!
Honestly, I am so hoping that many of the girls from here will come. I want to meet all of you... Lotus, Flame, Kari, Eva, Lenneth.everyone. Elisa asked about it so I am hoping she decides to came. And Karren wants to, don't you Karren...tee hee. I was even hoping Heather and Myboobs might hop across the pond. It shouldnt be hard for MissedMiss to get there, right MM? And all the newer girls...everyone! It would be so awesome to have a whole platoon of BN girls all there together.
I mean, after everything we share with each other here and to such a personal degree, it would be like a big family reunion.
Please try to come!

Oh, Annie, please...you simply must try to join us! It would be so much fun! I want to meet you!
Honestly, I am so hoping that many of the girls from here will come. I want to meet all of you... Lotus, Flame, Kari, Eva, Lenneth.everyone. Elisa asked about it so I am hoping she decides to came. And Karren wants to, don't you Karren...tee hee. I was even hoping Heather and Myboobs might hop across the pond. It shouldnt be hard for MissedMiss to get there, right MM? And all the newer girls...everyone! It would be so awesome to have a whole platoon of BN girls all there together.
I mean, after everything we share with each other here and to such a personal degree, it would be like a big family reunion.
Please try to come!

I'm with you, Sammie. You know, people have come and gone from this forum never to be heard from again. But, I'm sure that those of us who come together for this event will be friends and a source of support beyond our participation here. Who knows, maybe a couple life-long friendships will come about. It's a wonderful prospect, isn't it?

Clara

Hopefully, Clara, but I suppose its also possible we could find we all hate each other....lol....though I dont really see that happening at all.

Hopefully, Clara, but I suppose its also possible we could find we all hate each other....lol....though I dont really see that happening at all.

LOL...yeah, on-line personalities can sometimes be misleading. I know there are a lot of members here that I'd love to meet. I feel like I already know so many of you on the inside. Imagine giving real hugs instead of our virtual ones. (Gulp) I hope I'm not scaring you girls off! LOL!

More digital hugs,

Clara

Oh, Annie, please...you simply must try to join us! It would be so much fun! I want to meet you!
Honestly, I am so hoping that many of the girls from here will come. I want to meet all of you... Lotus, Flame, Kari, Eva, Lenneth.everyone. Elisa asked about it so I am hoping she decides to came. And Karren wants to, don't you Karren...tee hee. I was even hoping Heather and Myboobs might hop across the pond. It shouldnt be hard for MissedMiss to get there, right MM? And all the newer girls...everyone! It would be so awesome to have a whole platoon of BN girls all there together.
I mean, after everything we share with each other here and to such a personal degree, it would be like a big family reunion.
Please try to come!

How much time do you think I have before the hotel gets booked up? I must have O&O approval, and I still have a long way to go. Also I believe that if I get that far she would feel less insecure if I did at least ask her to come (I see there is provision for SOs) and I don't know what either she or the group would think about that. If she ever did agree to come, I think she would be good value and might even enjoy it. She has accompanied me on a few of my more interesting adventures. I'd largely given up on these whilst we were bringing up the family, and when left with an empty nest, she wanted to give me as a special birthday present one of the tours she found out about to two of the more decrepit Latin American railroads that fascinated me. I jumped at this provided that she would come too, so off we went to Ecuador. It turned out to be as exhilarating and sometimes scary an adventure as Southern Comfort seems to promise I can assure you that a party of lunatic fringe railfans is quite as oddball a collection as we are, but she got on very well with them and the whole thing was a big success for both of us. The tour leader eventually admitted that it was the first time their charter train had actually managed to complete the entireamazing journey from Guayaquil up the Andes and on along the Avenue of the Volcanoes to Quito (it took 5 days and four derailments). The one thing J wouldn't do was ride on the train roof with me.

I may be over optimistic, but J invited me to bed last night after supper and we had a ball - and I hope we may also have made a little progress towards at least acknowledgement of my changes.

Hugs!

Oh, Annie! That would be absolutely brilliant! Oh, yes, please try to come!
I don't know about the number of rooms left but you could call and ask? Or make a reservation thinking to cacel if you had to?
It would be so much fun! You just made my night, dear friend!

Ha! ...and then there were four ( or is it five, Elisa?) LOL

So, last week when I saw my endo they took blood. It was a rather emotional weekend in my house, dealing with some issues with my wife. A lot of tears, even for me...lol. Today I got the results of my bloodwork and some things became clear. A month ago my E, after one month on Estradiol, was at 130 something. Last weeks results showed E at a stupendous 278.8.
No wonder my emotions were out of control.
I have been advised to cut my E intake in half.
I am thinking about that...LOL


PS - much, much gratitude to the forum member who patiently held my hand this weekend.

PPS - I am guessing a return to simply swallowing rather than taking the E sublingually is also probably in order...lol

I have been advised to cut my E intake in half.

If you do that, what dosage will you be taking, Sammie? I recall that your endo agreed to increase your E2 to 8 mg/day. Does that mean you will drop down to 4 mg by mouth?

Even at your now rather high E level, you said that no appreciable breast growth has occurred. Does that mean you have reached your genetic limit? If so, what is your next move to try to trigger more growth, which is, I assume, still your goal?

Clara