(01-03-2012, 05:51 AM)Aku Hime Wrote: Hey, since this post already existed i didn't want to make a new one. I'm in a similar situation >.>
So first of all, i'm 18, 150Lb (68kg), 5'11", Male v.v and what not. I really really really dislike everything masculine, i'm very much straight, but i guess you could say i'm the odd balls of the odd balls, per-say <.<
I basically envy the female body, am disgusted by the male body, and don't want anything to do with it. I want to have a female shape, Grow breast, look like a girl (which i'm not very manly to begin with, which is good :] ). But on the other hand, i don't want to get rid of my member down bellow, as bothersome as it can get, it's useful, especially since i'll just want to be with other girls v-v. Hopefully for me it will remain functionable for making kids, but at the very least, i don't want it to shrink/stop working.
So, is there things i can try (like I've read stuff about this "PM" everywhere) that will help me become more feminine, Grow breast (my aim is B-C) and not forfeit my "permanent strap-on"? Guessing starting soon while i'm still young should make things more effective?
PM will make you as big as you can be, but it will take 2-3 years, just like real girls. You will find that your libido goes down, and erections become voluntary. I have found that Butea Superba improves this situation a lot, but a young person may not need it.
Warning:
Unless you have a developmental condition that compels you to do this, I would warn against it; you may find it much harder to find a partner who wants to make children with you when your breasts have grown.
I would suggest counselling, but they don't seem to have grasped the need some people feel to be "in-between" male and female. The law in most countries doesn't account for it either.
It's possible that what you have is a psychological problem causing your dislike of the male form that could be helped with therapy; it may be that this is something you should explore.
One test is recommended by some gender counsellors. If and when you do obtain PM, take careful note of how it affects your mental state.
Once you have been taking a reasonable amount for about a week, if you find yourself experiencing anxiety attacks, you should stop taking it. This would indicate that your brain developed normally in the womb, and using female hormones would not be a good idea.
If you find that the PM relaxes you, makes you feel calm, and, more importantly, makes you actually stop caring whether you have breasts or not, you probably have a developmental condition that indicates you tend towards transsexualism. If this happens, you really need to get gender counselling (in my humble opinion).
Good luck!
Bryony