Hi Jan, I too suppressed my inner feelings and especially whilst in the Army for 15 years. I almost got caught out post Army in my later employment and had to cut the CD'ing out for a few months so no-one pointed a finger at me.
My wife has known for 35 years but is still no happier today but tolerates it to a large extent. More recently I have been growing my breasts opposed to padded bra's and this makes me feel even happier with myself.
I was taking BO (Bovine Ovary) for 3 months without any noticeable change then at the beginning of this year switched to PM and now can report much more success. In fact my boobs seem to be permanently sore and tender.
Incidentally, I get my supplies from a Uk source which may be of interest to you!
Good luck with your NBE and echo the others with a warm welcome.
Hugs Heather
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