Thank you everyone,
My heart feels like its in a vice when I look at my children. I know that I would be more miserable without them. And I can't imagine not having my wife by my side.
The thing is, I've come to except this feeling, this want and desire to be a woman. The desire to grow breast is what brought me here. But when we (my wife and I) talk about it (my GID) I always pull short and say, "No honey, I would never have SRS surgery, I couldn't do that. I just like to wear women's clothes and put on make up." Yet in my heart I am thinking, "Yes sweetie, but I need you too."
I see a therapist and it helps to talk about it. And you gals are a great support too. I haven't been 100% upfront with her about my current state of mind. I don't know when the right time is. With the kids we have so few moments to ourselves...
I better buy extra Kleenex this week.
Thanks for all the advice.