12-02-2014, 04:55 PM
Jan, you appear to be on the slow growth path, but I think that's to your advantage. Take your time. Gradual breast development means you have a good long time to consider all the ramifications of the changes you're inducing through NBE. I've come to conclusion that most crossgenders have it rough, one way or another. There are so many obstacles and disappointments, as well as joys, on this journey. Often we are drawn along by the perception of a sweeter life on the other side, only to find that the grass isn't necessarily greener.
Jeez! That sounds very discouraging. I must be in a very pensive mood today.
I've only been at this NBE thing for 4 months, but it's been an avalanche of changes in my life. Sometimes, I don't even recognize myself from who I was just a few short months ago. From physical appearance to behavioral patterns to temperament, I am much changed. I want to say it was all because of PM, but I'm not so sure that's the whole story. PM seems to have acted as a detonator which has set off a much larger explosive force within.
At this juncture, I am trying to imagine where this path is leading and what to expect and prepare for as time progresses. I'm not as confident, as I once was, that I can stop the train at any time and get off. It's like Sammie wrote, your self-perception changes as events unfold. You shouldn't assume your perspective will stay the same as it is today; it won't.
I think that the most potentially promising and damaging outcome is the knowledge that you are not who you were. Whether you choose to let the world know that, or keep it from everyone, your knowing it will have an impact on so many different facets of your life -- some positive, some negative. It's good to have some idea what those effects will be, primarily on the ones closest to you, your career, and your own sense of well-being. Will the outcome be, on balance, an improvement in your life or a cause for regret?
I'm sounding a lot like Patti in this post, and I know it might be taking away some of the joy you are feeling at the moment. I'm going to click the 'Post Reply' button with some reluctance, because, at the end of the day, you'll want a joy that will be lasting, not temporary.
So congratulations! Here's to lasting joy on your journey of self-discovery.
Welcome, Jan, and a heartfelt hug for you,
Clara
Jeez! That sounds very discouraging. I must be in a very pensive mood today.
I've only been at this NBE thing for 4 months, but it's been an avalanche of changes in my life. Sometimes, I don't even recognize myself from who I was just a few short months ago. From physical appearance to behavioral patterns to temperament, I am much changed. I want to say it was all because of PM, but I'm not so sure that's the whole story. PM seems to have acted as a detonator which has set off a much larger explosive force within.
At this juncture, I am trying to imagine where this path is leading and what to expect and prepare for as time progresses. I'm not as confident, as I once was, that I can stop the train at any time and get off. It's like Sammie wrote, your self-perception changes as events unfold. You shouldn't assume your perspective will stay the same as it is today; it won't.
I think that the most potentially promising and damaging outcome is the knowledge that you are not who you were. Whether you choose to let the world know that, or keep it from everyone, your knowing it will have an impact on so many different facets of your life -- some positive, some negative. It's good to have some idea what those effects will be, primarily on the ones closest to you, your career, and your own sense of well-being. Will the outcome be, on balance, an improvement in your life or a cause for regret?
I'm sounding a lot like Patti in this post, and I know it might be taking away some of the joy you are feeling at the moment. I'm going to click the 'Post Reply' button with some reluctance, because, at the end of the day, you'll want a joy that will be lasting, not temporary.
So congratulations! Here's to lasting joy on your journey of self-discovery.
Welcome, Jan, and a heartfelt hug for you,
Clara
