10-03-2014, 01:36 PM
OK, here is a new can of worms to poke around in...
I have been thinking lately about motivations and I would like to hear what others have to say.
For many years, my relationships with others always confused love and sex. Strong feelings of love almost always led to a desire for sex. At the same time, GID issues were also tied up in that, whether through watching TG oriented porn or through dressing, invariably leading to an act of self gratification. For many years I believed, as a result, that crossdressing was for me a sexually driven fetish and one of which I was ashamed.
Now that my libido has dropped through the floor from PM, I am no longer certain about this at all, since the need to be feminine has, if anything, now begun to strengthen exponentially while there is almost zero thought of sex anymore. When I went out this last weekend, the joy I felt was palpable, beyond description, and yet there was absolutely no sexual component to it whatsoever. None. I could never have said this before. Removing that one element has clarified the other. But I do harbor strong suspicions that the need for love, still strong in me (as I expect it is in all of us) and whatever that word "love" means, but totally unrelated to sex, is nonetheless a large component of my GID. I confess, somewhat shyly, and probably to no surprise to some, that in me it is a deep seated need to be wanted.
It is also, I expect, tied up in feelings indicative of low self esteem. And this might well apply to many GG's who come here hoping to boost their own self esteem by boosting the size of their breasts. But it will likely be different for all of us.
Thoughts? Does this resonate with anyone else?
How is that for a Monday morning question to start the week?
Let the games begin!
The confession booth is open.
I have been thinking lately about motivations and I would like to hear what others have to say.
For many years, my relationships with others always confused love and sex. Strong feelings of love almost always led to a desire for sex. At the same time, GID issues were also tied up in that, whether through watching TG oriented porn or through dressing, invariably leading to an act of self gratification. For many years I believed, as a result, that crossdressing was for me a sexually driven fetish and one of which I was ashamed.
Now that my libido has dropped through the floor from PM, I am no longer certain about this at all, since the need to be feminine has, if anything, now begun to strengthen exponentially while there is almost zero thought of sex anymore. When I went out this last weekend, the joy I felt was palpable, beyond description, and yet there was absolutely no sexual component to it whatsoever. None. I could never have said this before. Removing that one element has clarified the other. But I do harbor strong suspicions that the need for love, still strong in me (as I expect it is in all of us) and whatever that word "love" means, but totally unrelated to sex, is nonetheless a large component of my GID. I confess, somewhat shyly, and probably to no surprise to some, that in me it is a deep seated need to be wanted.
It is also, I expect, tied up in feelings indicative of low self esteem. And this might well apply to many GG's who come here hoping to boost their own self esteem by boosting the size of their breasts. But it will likely be different for all of us.
Thoughts? Does this resonate with anyone else?
How is that for a Monday morning question to start the week?
Let the games begin!
The confession booth is open.