I have been coming to this board for a long time. In that time I have gone through many changes. When I first arrived here a few members at that time warned me (or tried to warn me) of the power of these herbs to dramatically change a person, and to be very careful about knowing what I was doing. I dismissed their warnings, and in my mind knew better. I was wrong.
As the last four years have unfolded, their predictions have come to pass. I am wiser now. I do not in any way regret the changes that have taken place, nor would I change anything. I have shared probably more than I should have shared about my journey and have no doubt some grew weary of my verbosity long ago. (Somebody tell that bitch to shut up!
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No matter, I shared because I felt a record of my experiences might be of benefit to someone, and, frankly because I needed the opportunity to do so to help me deal with that journey. In that time I have received, with few exceptions a love and support I could not have survived without. I am forever grateful for that and all the wonderful people and friends I have found here.
I find now that when I counsel the same caution to others I am met with the same reaction others received from me when I began. I understand. Clara asked me some time ago whether I felt I had "outgrown" this board. I laughed it off at the time, since this place has been my online home for so long. But I guess I was wrong.
As others have pointed out, this board is for NBE. I have moved beyond that now. I do not know yet where this road will lead and that is somewhat scary, but I know it is the road I should be on.
I now feel it is time for me to leave. My situation is now far different from that of so many arriving now and I feel I am only in the way. I shall still be at SCC and I still very much hope to meet all of you there if you are going. If you need, please contact me by email and I will reply. For those who need a friend I am still here. I did not want to just disappear as others have done, hence this posting.
I shall miss this family. I wish you all nothing but the very best.
And now I need to put on some loud music. I need to dance....
Hugs
Samantha