[Samantha Rogers]

Annie, sadly all my outings still use a wig (I have two ...very similar, though one is a little longer and darker). However, I have not cut my hair in over a year now. It was very short before but is coming close to where I may soon be brave enough to try going without a wig. Thankfully, the E seems to have accelerated the rate at which it grows. It is never going to look as good as the wigs, but it will be real. :-)

[Samantha Rogers]

For the majority of the three plus years prior to syn HRT, the program was primarily high volumes of PM (between 2000mgs and 4500mgs daily) with a small amount of SP (500-600 mgs daily) plus occasional experimentation with Maca.
In February when my blood work was done, my Testosterone measured at less than 1 free T and less than 3 total. Yes, you read that correctly. It remains in that range now despite having removed all AAs from my program.
Since early February I have used between 3mgs and 6mgs of E administered daily and orally under the tongue to dissolve. In addition O have supplemented with some 1000-1500mgs of PM and recently added Maca plus oral Progesterone.

Prior to January of this year, I had never dressed publicly and never in front of anyone, nor had I ever had a picture taken despite having dressed privately for some twenty years.
In late January I had a makeover done at a studio locally. Here is a pic from that session (I hated the wig, but I like the shot overall)

Sammie,

A almost negative value of T, who knew that was possible?. I think your shape has definitely progressed, it's so much more fuller than February's photo. Along with your overall feminization (which I can't say it enough) is that you make it look so easy. its pretty scary to think what you can accomplish in the future only have been dressing/pics/outings in public since January!.

It's really inspiring to many to have all that going for ya and be an awesome person too!.

Hugs!

Thanks, Lotus! Love you, sis!

[AnnieBL]

Annie, sadly all my outings still use a wig (I have two ...very similar, though one is a little longer and darker). However, I have not cut my hair in over a year now. It was very short before but is coming close to where I may soon be brave enough to try going without a wig. Thankfully, the E seems to have accelerated the rate at which it grows. It is never going to look as good as the wigs, but it will be real. :-)

I've sometimes wondered whether my massive early hair loss may have been dysphoric. It isn't hereditary, and I lost a lot of hair one suummer term at school when I was 11 and very unhappy, to the extent that I was taken to a specialist, with what conclusion I know not. It grew back again but sfarted falling at a phenomenal rate from my late teens onwards into my early twenties by which time there wasn't a lot left - just enough to train wispy strands across the top for a few more years. It may have been DHT but perhaps not. It was a great relief to all when I finally cut off the last few strands. On the other hand I haven't paid a barber for fifty years so that should pay for a few wigs . I'm sure nothing I have taken has ever sprouted a single hair on my head, and now, presumably due to very, very low T, maybe as low as yours, all my body hair has gone except for a bit at the crotch and a weak beard growth, finally putting me at an advantage over most of you.

Hugs and hugs

[myboobs]

Looking fantastic as usuall Sammie . I bet you are an envy for many a GG's .

This thread is shining light on subject often kept in dark . Here we have real ppl with real feeling telling their true feelings and their journey .

I must thank each and every contributor for sharing their journey , feelings, thoughts . This also gives others what mountains to climb / pitfalls / learning curve to overcome .

Love and hugz to all contributors .

[GoneGirl]

Looking fantastic as usuall Sammie . I bet you are an envy for many a GG's .

This thread is shining light on subject often kept in dark . Here we have real ppl with real feeling telling their true feelings and their journey .

I must thank each and every contributor for sharing their journey , feelings, thoughts . This also gives others what mountains to climb / pitfalls / learning curve to overcome .

Love and hugz to all contributors .

Well said, MB. This site changed my life for the better, and Sammie was my inspiration from the very start......but.....

As much as we late transitioners would like to replicate the bodies, faces, glamor, and emotions of our opposites on the physical gender spectrum, it's a tough row to hoe. Some of us have an easier time than others, and that helps to quell the transgender fires that rage within. So many others have to settle for much, much less. I'm always a little shaken when a genetic female drops by our group of CDers many of whom spent 3 or 4 hours preparing to go out en femme, and realize how far short of the real thing we fall. If a solution to one's trans issues is to be meaningful and lasting, the emphasis has to shift from from focusing on the external to bringing out the woman you are on the inside. Those attributes will last a lot longer than any fleeting expression of feminine beauty. And, oh, how fleeting it is.

But I don't want to be a party pooper. Enjoy the dressing up while you can, gurls. Most GGs do, so it must be part of what it means to be a woman....giggle.

Clara

[myboobs]

Looking fantastic as usuall Sammie . I bet you are an envy for many a GG's .

This thread is shining light on subject often kept in dark . Here we have real ppl with real feeling telling their true feelings and their journey .

I must thank each and every contributor for sharing their journey , feelings, thoughts . This also gives others what mountains to climb / pitfalls / learning curve to overcome .

Love and hugz to all contributors .

Well said, MB. This site changed my life for the better, and Sammie was my inspiration from the very start......but.....

As much as we late transitioners would like to replicate the bodies, faces, glamor, and emotions of our opposites on the physical gender spectrum, it's a tough row to hoe. Some of us have an easier time than others, and that helps to quell the transgender fires that rage within. So many others have to settle for much, much less. I'm always a little shaken when a genetic female drops by our group of CDers many of whom spent 3 or 4 hours preparing to go out en femme, and realize how far short of the real thing we fall. If a solution to one's trans issues is to be meaningful and lasting, the emphasis has to shift from from focusing on the external to bringing out the woman you are on the inside. Those attributes will last a lot longer than any fleeting expression of feminine beauty. And, oh, how fleeting it is.

But I don't want to be a party pooper. Enjoy the dressing up while you can, gurls. Most GGs do, so it must be part of what it means to be a woman....giggle.

Clara

Clara I agree with what you say but is not external expression giving way as to how you feel inside . I have much tougher journey due to many restriction , but have added little bits under diffrent guises . Started with underwear which started back in 98 added corsets in 99 , fajas in 08, herbs in 12 , and here I am down a long journey . If I had noticed this site back in 98 , don't know where I would have been .

I know everyone has diffrent goals , but often on the way the goal changes . Writing this I have lump in my throat and damp eyes , damm emotions

I do rejoice by reading all here reaching for their goals and happiness they get from developments . Must admit sometimes the green goblins get me

[GoneGirl]

Post relocated to Gender Identity.

[Samantha Rogers]

So moving along in this saga, we now come to late March when I joined the Detroit Crossroads crew for their annual dinner. We ate in a public restaurant ( a first for me) and then changed and went to GiGis to dance. I benefited tremendously from the advice and coaching of my two new friends Pamela and Diane, who remain close friends today.Later, I could not bare to remove everything as I was still so alive, so I took the bra picture. No forms that night...just a regular bra from Target.
           

[Samantha Rogers]

Third time out...Early April saw me back at Crossroads for a meeting. No dancing that night...drat...but a really nice afterglow at one of the hotel rooms and a lot of good conversation with a lot of new friends.
           

[Samantha Rogers]

Late April it was back to Grand Rapids for a mega all day outing that was a lot of firsts. First time in a public restaurant in daylight, First time out in jeans (love it!) first time wandering through a public park amongst the vanilla world, and then dancing that night. This was a wonderful adventure and there are way too many pics to share. I will always owe so much to BillieAnneJean who runs the group in GR and gives so much of herself. A real angel.