08-08-2014, 09:42 AM
Hi, i just started feminizing myself yesterday night, with PM and SP(following the flat2fem program guideline), and today marks the next day. Sighh... if only i found this site before or just after finding flat2fem since i actually held off buying for some months due to thinking about how my family, relatives and society would think and all, but i am pretty sure i was born somewhat a girl inside since i actually tried to imitate being pregnant at a very young age(~4 yrs old), played girly stuff like barbie and the fake cooking stuff instead of running around like normal boys until i felt that i shouldn't be doing it due to social reasons.
So anyways, din really feel anything, except feeling some inner warmth for awhile minutes after taking the capsules, which had never happened before(yesterday was a cool night) and also had this "foggy" sleep after i woke up at 6:30am to pee and then went to sleep again.
So far still nothing, but im anticipating. I also got another question. My left chest is bigger and more volume and when i push my fingers in and pinch just outside my aerola, i feel some sort of sphere solid(before any HBE), which i do not dare to squeeze too hard. However, for my right chest, i dun know if it has this sphere thing because my right is more sensitive(due to being smaller?) and it starts to hurt before i even feel anything.
This leads me to talk about my puberty history for a bit. I hit puberty fairly early for a male, at 13 yrs. Most of you should know that boys also have those buds before the darned T comes and make it "disappear" and stop all kinds of breast-growth except for those with gynecomastia. So when i was at that period of growth, i used to play with my chest(squeezing and pinching sometimes quite hard, rubbing nipples) because the tender pain kinda felt good, and at one point, being young and stupid. i even used a dumbbell(1.1kg each side) and rolled it over my chest since the pain felt so nice(making me instinctively rub my erect boy through my pants and actually came) and the weights just happened to touch just outside of my aerola(left-side for left chest, right-side for right), so i am wondering if i damaged the bud for my right chest and stopped all growth, as my left is bigger and has more volume and whether it will affect my subsequent growth(if any) in the journey of feminization
I am 18 and slightly more than 2months old now, reason why i start so late is due to financial planning + i had a small/skinny but masculine body due to genetics e.g defined chest which is softer now since i have not worked it for months(left bigger than right), small but defined arm muscles especially the sides of my shoulder, jungle below, lots of leg hair which i hate and wanna remove but parents objected saying that they look sexy(for a guy) and guys SHOULD NOT remove leg hair unless they are gay(out-dated thinking FTW?) but i don't wanna be a guy anyways... And yes i feel that my left chest is really a lot bigger than my right chest, even my left nipple and aerola is bigger than my right chest's >_<
So anyways, din really feel anything, except feeling some inner warmth for awhile minutes after taking the capsules, which had never happened before(yesterday was a cool night) and also had this "foggy" sleep after i woke up at 6:30am to pee and then went to sleep again.
So far still nothing, but im anticipating. I also got another question. My left chest is bigger and more volume and when i push my fingers in and pinch just outside my aerola, i feel some sort of sphere solid(before any HBE), which i do not dare to squeeze too hard. However, for my right chest, i dun know if it has this sphere thing because my right is more sensitive(due to being smaller?) and it starts to hurt before i even feel anything.
This leads me to talk about my puberty history for a bit. I hit puberty fairly early for a male, at 13 yrs. Most of you should know that boys also have those buds before the darned T comes and make it "disappear" and stop all kinds of breast-growth except for those with gynecomastia. So when i was at that period of growth, i used to play with my chest(squeezing and pinching sometimes quite hard, rubbing nipples) because the tender pain kinda felt good, and at one point, being young and stupid. i even used a dumbbell(1.1kg each side) and rolled it over my chest since the pain felt so nice(making me instinctively rub my erect boy through my pants and actually came) and the weights just happened to touch just outside of my aerola(left-side for left chest, right-side for right), so i am wondering if i damaged the bud for my right chest and stopped all growth, as my left is bigger and has more volume and whether it will affect my subsequent growth(if any) in the journey of feminization
I am 18 and slightly more than 2months old now, reason why i start so late is due to financial planning + i had a small/skinny but masculine body due to genetics e.g defined chest which is softer now since i have not worked it for months(left bigger than right), small but defined arm muscles especially the sides of my shoulder, jungle below, lots of leg hair which i hate and wanna remove but parents objected saying that they look sexy(for a guy) and guys SHOULD NOT remove leg hair unless they are gay(out-dated thinking FTW?) but i don't wanna be a guy anyways... And yes i feel that my left chest is really a lot bigger than my right chest, even my left nipple and aerola is bigger than my right chest's >_<