Umm, hi everyone! I've been lurking here for about two months now. It's new year (happy new year to you all) and I signed up to hopefully make some friends and maybe start my journey. =)
I'm sorry if I come across very nervous writing this... talking about this is hard emotionally for me and I get stressed thinking about it. But here I go and I'll try my best. I hope this in the correct forum section by the way (sorry if it's not!).
I'm biologically male, nearly 21, from the UK and I suffer from heavy GID, I've know since I was very young (less than 8) I was meant to grow up a girl and that something brain wise was seriously wrong. I was reluctant to tell my parents all the way up until I was 17... I was on the edge of suicide when somehow I managed to back off from the ledge and run home crying to my Mum/Dad. Since after telling them, I have completed my degree and have managed to get to a relativity stable state and I have my depression under control (to a certain extent). My parents are fully supportive of whatever I do but they really dislike to talk about anything to do with hormones and/or me transitioning, which I understand and hopefully will ease over time.
I understand this forum is more about breast growth, but I've seen just about everything from "crossdressing dreams" to full blown post op M2F's. I figured it might be good to sign up here because I respect everyones ideas and opinions and only wish to be safe in what I do (and help others if possible).
I originally signed up to a few gender specific forums, but I felt very intimidated by the way people spoke to me... like "you should have done this", "you don't do that".... I won't be saying names, but it was a bit daunting I have to admit; You lot look a bit more friendly lol.
So, I've be squatting on just about everything to do with NBE and herbs/hormones and self based transitioning. I already knew a lot about synthetics. Two years ago I signed up for a one and a half year long wait to see a gender therapist and start HRT only to get to a point 6 months ago to be told I'd have to wait another year because of some backlog issues and that they were just too busy and very sorry, so stuff it. The NHS is useless, I can't get through to anyone now, it's just hell cooperating with them so I'd like to try do things on my own.
I'd like to start PM asap and somehow work towards my final goal of living as female 24/7, however for now, I'm much more interested in the "mental happiness" that people seem to mention after two ish months of taking it (Can anyone elaborate please?). Any other changes beyond that ie. breasts are just a plus! =O
I'm a bit worried about the side effects of PM, mainly I've read about heart/liver issues, permanent skin discoloration and other horrible stuff? Am I over-thinking it? Am I only seeing the negatives or is it just plain fear monging? That being said, I would still take it, only because life's too short and I really really want to be truly happy for the first time in my life!! Can anyone please offer any knowledge on their experiences and/or sum up what to expect if I was to start taking 1000mg per day then maybe increase it? Is it the right thing to do taking PM? Or have you been in my situation if you have GID too? Would PM only get me so far? Is it dangerous to take for a very long time?
Thanks all, <3
Mel.
(Please excuse grammar and spelling, it has just gone 5am, not managed to sleep yet! ^^)
I'm sorry if I come across very nervous writing this... talking about this is hard emotionally for me and I get stressed thinking about it. But here I go and I'll try my best. I hope this in the correct forum section by the way (sorry if it's not!).
I'm biologically male, nearly 21, from the UK and I suffer from heavy GID, I've know since I was very young (less than 8) I was meant to grow up a girl and that something brain wise was seriously wrong. I was reluctant to tell my parents all the way up until I was 17... I was on the edge of suicide when somehow I managed to back off from the ledge and run home crying to my Mum/Dad. Since after telling them, I have completed my degree and have managed to get to a relativity stable state and I have my depression under control (to a certain extent). My parents are fully supportive of whatever I do but they really dislike to talk about anything to do with hormones and/or me transitioning, which I understand and hopefully will ease over time.
I understand this forum is more about breast growth, but I've seen just about everything from "crossdressing dreams" to full blown post op M2F's. I figured it might be good to sign up here because I respect everyones ideas and opinions and only wish to be safe in what I do (and help others if possible).
I originally signed up to a few gender specific forums, but I felt very intimidated by the way people spoke to me... like "you should have done this", "you don't do that".... I won't be saying names, but it was a bit daunting I have to admit; You lot look a bit more friendly lol.
So, I've be squatting on just about everything to do with NBE and herbs/hormones and self based transitioning. I already knew a lot about synthetics. Two years ago I signed up for a one and a half year long wait to see a gender therapist and start HRT only to get to a point 6 months ago to be told I'd have to wait another year because of some backlog issues and that they were just too busy and very sorry, so stuff it. The NHS is useless, I can't get through to anyone now, it's just hell cooperating with them so I'd like to try do things on my own.
I'd like to start PM asap and somehow work towards my final goal of living as female 24/7, however for now, I'm much more interested in the "mental happiness" that people seem to mention after two ish months of taking it (Can anyone elaborate please?). Any other changes beyond that ie. breasts are just a plus! =O
I'm a bit worried about the side effects of PM, mainly I've read about heart/liver issues, permanent skin discoloration and other horrible stuff? Am I over-thinking it? Am I only seeing the negatives or is it just plain fear monging? That being said, I would still take it, only because life's too short and I really really want to be truly happy for the first time in my life!! Can anyone please offer any knowledge on their experiences and/or sum up what to expect if I was to start taking 1000mg per day then maybe increase it? Is it the right thing to do taking PM? Or have you been in my situation if you have GID too? Would PM only get me so far? Is it dangerous to take for a very long time?
Thanks all, <3
Mel.
(Please excuse grammar and spelling, it has just gone 5am, not managed to sleep yet! ^^)
