[EvaMarie]

Hey thanks Janet Ive always been scared of riding myself, Id never trust myself but I do like getting on the back with a guy who knows what he's doing

We'll he was surprisingly good for a 60 year old man I ended up going into town and getting some wig glue that works really good and just pinned it down good on the sides and back... Then I just tied on a bandanna tight with everything tied in back... Well it stayed on no problem It was pretty hard on it though and it got kinda frayed from whipping around so much in the wind

So no I didn't wear a helmet but he did have a nice leather jacket for me that fit perfect He says he's been riding for at least 30 years and I could see he was very good at, I felt totally safe anyway

He said I was the first trans woman he's ever been with (damn twice, maybe it was just me ) but he was totally cool We went for a NICE ride through one of the nicest parts of the Black Hills and stopped for lunch at a biker bar then back to my place

Donno if I'll ever see him again (I hope so) but at least I conquered my fear, and now Im HOOKED, I LOVE it I wont be turning down any more guys that want to ride unless they seem like idiots or scumbags Looking forward to going to the Sturgis rally this year

Also Ive been looking for a job and I got a call from the HR guy at Lowes.... I applied for a seasonal job at the garden center... He said to go back online and apply for the cashier job at the garden center and he'd call me next week for an interview I like this job because they don't make you wear some ugly ass uniform, just a vest and name tag... And its kinda outside with all the pretty flowers and plants

[EvaMarie]

The swelling in the right side of my jaw is finally going away and not so numb No way in hell Id ever feel comfortable tying my hair back and having my face so open before the FFS but Im OK now Not bad for 46 years old anyway





Anyway I could use some better boots (love these but they aren't really thick enough for riding) and a good leather jacket and a better dew rag for my hair Maybe some kind of mostly open helmet

[WantAPair]

Pretty eyes!!

[GoneGirl]

I'm glad you had such a good time, Eva. Another step forward for you. You just can't keep a good girl down. You're looking better in every picture, too, and that's got to be so satisfying for you. Hell, I'm expecting you'll be announcing your engagement by year's end.....

Hugs,
Clara

[myboobs]

I'm glad you had such a good time, Eva. Another step forward for you. You just can't keep a good girl down. You're looking better in every picture, too, and that's got to be so satisfying for you. Hell, I'm expecting you'll be announcing your engagement by year's end.....

Hugs,
Clara

Engagement ! :o

[EvaMarie]

I'm glad you had such a good time, Eva. Another step forward for you. You just can't keep a good girl down. You're looking better in every picture, too, and that's got to be so satisfying for you. Hell, I'm expecting you'll be announcing your engagement by year's end.....

Hugs,
Clara

Thanks Sis Yea it was a great time but he's no different than the rest... I wont hold my breath here waiting for a marriage proposal LOL Straight guys just want to satisfy a curiosity or just a quick dirty hook up even if they are comfortable going on dates with me... Even the coolest non creepy men who I seem to really hit it off great and have a lot of fun with, a great date, all the same After it sinks it that they were with a pre op trans woman they get all guilty feeling and start feeling ashamed and they nearly all just disappear Usually they will ask me later that day or the next "who I told" WTF dude really??? Uhh I told my Mom I was going on a date, I talk to her a lot If they piss me off I usually tell them "just girl talk with my GF's" LOL Think about that and fuck off asshole at least they accept me as a woman and not some freak to be embarrassed about feeling attraction to for all the wrong reasons Then I know its pretty much over right there and that really sucks They nearly ALL want to touch the lady bits and I think that's just more than they can handle when they think about that afterwards I sure as hell don't like it I never asked for that and usually I ask them not to....

So no unless something down there changes soon and I can get rid of all traces of my old life and go 100% stealth I just cant see that happening anytime soon... BUT ya never know and I just keep going back for more of the same old shit Well at least the dates are getting better anyway I should probably try to stop being such a slut, that might help

So on a more positive note I finally get to go see my doc tomorrow and get these labs over with and hopefully get an increase in E dosage, is getting rough here the day before my shot on his low dosage Im gonna guess my E level 5 days after a 7mg shot will be between 100 and 150 pg/ml and Im thinking T will be something like 10-15ng/dl... I was at the Target pharmacy today and they said they can get Delestrogen again in 20mg/ml, about time!!! its only been at least 6 months now that its been off the market... I was starting to suspect an internal government conspiracy aimed at shuttling down the "BIG GAY" agenda LOL Im gonna ask him to send in the script and hopefully my insurance will cover it... They refuse to cover the compounded stuff Ive been using Im glad Im seeing him at 9:00 AM because Im looking forward to shooting up a nice 20mg shot in my car the minute I get out of there like some kind of E junkie Actually 10mg in each leg works even better than one big shot, cant wait

On an even more positive note I have my first job interview since 1990 and also my first ever job interview as a woman at 1:00 tomorrow Ive only been unemployed since 7-18-2008... Its a seasonal cashier job at the garden center at Lowes.... Gotta start somewhere.... I did have to consent to a drug test, a background check, credit check (its excellent but mostly in my old name ), and even had give them my previous (male) name... So Im thinking the HR guy has to know Im trans, kinda surprised he called me but at least Im gonna get a chance to make a good impression in person... So it could be a really good day tomorrow or it could also end up being pretty shitty....

[GoneGirl]

Thanks for the insights on the dating scene, Eva. As you say, "You never know." Oh, and good luck on landing that cashier job. But, why go back to work? Getting bored already?

Clara

[EvaMarie]

Hi Clara, I get really bored not working and as you know this isn't a cheap endeavor Id like to know I can function in the world as a woman for real day in day out at a real job dealing with people... Also Im only 46 I have a long way to go and I gotta start somewhere, unless I find a sugar daddy I worry about running out of $$$ in 15-20 years and being a poor old woman I really was starting to hate working as a "man", it was hell back in 2008... Im really excited about working as a woman though... It outta be eye opening anyway and if it sucks too bad well I guess I can just tell them to kiss my ass and quit

[myboobs]

Hi Clara, I get really bored not working and as you know this isn't a cheap endeavor Id like to know I can function in the world as a woman for real day in day out at a real job dealing with people... Also Im only 46 I have a long way to go and I gotta start somewhere, unless I find a sugar daddy I worry about running out of $$$ in 15-20 years and being a poor old woman I really was starting to hate working as a "man", it was hell back in 2008... Im really excited about working as a woman though... It outta be eye opening anyway and if it sucks too bad well I guess I can just tell them to kiss my ass and quit

I could do with a reliable staff
Anyone who can hit my level of running shop , package is attractive

[GoneGirl]

I understand, Eva. Yes, you are still very young, you lucky girl you, but you are wise to prepare for a possibly long future in which financial security will make or break you in terms of quality of life. Being old enough to be your mother (tee hee), I see life a lot differently. The clock is running out fast for me, and there's so much I want to experience while I'm still able.

BTW, on the plane home from London, I sat next to an older woman with whom I struck up a long conversation. She had no inkling that I was not a born woman, asking questions about my family, my husband, etc. I eventually admitted to her that I was in a same-sex relationship, but not that I was trans. Bless her heart, it didn't make a bit of difference to her. I introduced my 'partner' to her later (we weren't seated together on the plane), Even after my makeup had long since rubbed off, I was still seen as a woman by everyone. Even babies smiled at me....love it!

Clara