Thank you for the suggestions.
Consistency seems to be my biggest problem. I have been VERY stressed for years, and it's bee getting worse.
(I mentioned some of the circumstances elsewhere, I believe. Put down the dog on Wednesday, he had lymphoma and couldn't even lie still... :-( )
Anyway: Thank you for suggesting the "Real Meal" book and site/blog. My problems are primarily threefold:
1. Hard to be consistent in the gym.
2. Sweet tooth exacerbated by stress (which is endless for me)
3. I eat good foods. Too much good food.
Put it all together, it's a recipe for disaster.
I'm down to 234 right now. (After tonight, probably going to hit 235... Despite being in a fasted state most of the day, I had to make the sick baby a milkshake... and I have to have some, so she won't feel guilty. :-) But WTF can you do. Not like I can be too direct about her irrationality - look where we are, after all, genetic males who want their own breasts...



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BUT, I'm trying to take the bull by the horns (again.) After the last few weeks... Dealing with the dog's cancer, and the woman being sick (Three prescriptions right now... Not a psychosomatic or fake thing), at least the stress levels have evened out. Got out of the storage unit, finished that today. Ate very little this weekend (and most of what was eaten was bad - cookies, ice cream, pasta. WTF was I thinking?)...
Now, maybe I can get back to working out.
But I need to change the workout. My lats are pushing out (and they're NOT impressive, mind) so much that the sports bras are cutting into me. And I've noticed a "dimple" in one boob that I think is from the bra band cutting into the flesh.... :-(
But I got saw palmetto and the "change-o-Life" blend (works well for me). Now if I focus back on weightloss and drop the 5X5 program (which wasn't helping), I can do more squats* and metabolic conditioning, and get my caloric intake under control (Maybe, and unicorns might fly me in to work tomorrow...)
But, what I eat IS up to me. I need to take some of the muscle catabolism as a good thing, take some of the links here, apply the knowledge... I just HATE being weak in ANY way. (I guess it comes from being picked on all my school days. Never fought back, never put my foot down, until I almost choked someone to death in seventh grade. It was an off day... But I let him live.)
It's not like I'll compete in a strongman competition, but I LIKE being able to lift heavy.
Which is counter to looking feminine.... :-P
Anyway - I'll try to redesign my meals, and change up the exercise a bit, and post some updates.
Even when it's "no change."