Huggy
16-07-2015, 08:58 PM
I am very much a newbie and have been sitting here for ages wondering about making a comment. My circumstances are such that I don't expect I will ever be a heavy poster. But I did think this new section could actually be an interesting adjunct to the main theme of this forum, so I thought I might put my own hat into the ring here.
Males staying male? A simple question but far from simple to answer. I guess in truth the reasons are many and everybody will have more than one reason. I can only speak personally and with the rider that I am still trying to find my own answers, but I suspect the biggest reason for staying male is having to face up to the realities of life. Reality can be a very cruel mistress. Loved ones, family, bills, responsibilities, and a myriad of other external aspects of our lives profoundly affect the decisions we make. Very few of us, if any are truly masters of our own path.
But then consider the personal and psychological aspects of trying to align our physicality with the mental image we have of ourselves, or at least hoping to find a degree of peace? Then add into the mix the games we play with ourselves, consciously or otherwise and the waters become very muddied indeed! (It is a wise man indeed who truly knows himself.)
However, I wonder how many who have decided to stay male, but if given the chance would take a pill that would turn you into a fully genetic female? Quite a few I would guess? How many of us would step into a Transmogrification Chamber and step out a young and beautiful female? Quite a few more I suspect? Or how many of us if given the opportunity to go back and be born female would take it? (Actually, this last one is a lot deeper than if first appears as you would also grow up female with female experiences and arguably wouldn't be you anymore?)
So..... what about me you ask? The reality of my circumstances are that the option of going public is, well, just not an option This will be a private journey. However, I don't have a SO to consider, and being a bit older with wobbly health does provide many a cover story and baggy clothes can hide many secrets. At what point I put the brakes on and go into maintenance mode I don't honestly know. I suspect those of you with wiser eyes will say "be careful what you wish for".
As for why? Still working that out. But to be able to gain the mental quietening that Flamesabers seems to be able to achieve, and actually start to like this body I have to live in would be quite an achievement. For some reason, a comment I read where it was almost as if they were cross dressing when they go out in male mode and felt a little bit naughty, rather amused me. I certainly am not there, but if it came to that I think I could handle it. A small price to pay for a calm mind and some soft curves for me to play with as much as I like. :-)
Huggy.