19-07-2015, 04:31 PM
Peace, Reading some of these posts i (a newbie to the site) am kinda disappointed. Outside these doors is a lot of misunderstanding , a lot of intolerance, and genuine cruelty ,, you know this better than i do. The awareness of something inside ourselves slightly different from that of our counterparts in the male species,should obviously be expected to be multi faceted? And have as wide a variety of looks as the clothing in the closets. I have heard a lot said about worries of division, and counterproductive dialog,, but (doesn't it feel even a little bit similar to the very people outside that race to create sub divisional titles for everything under the sun just to keep us nice and neat and separated ? The awakening to a new reality ,(or an old suppressed one ), canT help but be incredibly different for each of us,, as it should be. Wouldn't it be better to embrace the whole experience of A (fuller emergence) in so many different lives and depths of it,, and be enriched by that spectrum. Instead of worrying about individual approaches and responses to that awakening? I was a old school man, a Hercules wanna be, Everything i did was focused on the development of my body and the strength of my mind. And I was so blind i thought that was my greatest asset. Now i am still a relatively young man who has had breast tissue growing over the last twenty years. To a point that my torsos profile (through my clothing ) gets me mistaken for a woman. Obviously ive made some adjustments,, ive had some time to look into myself and my motivations, and yes my personal (previously misunderstood yearnings). And am at peace with who i am,, my new physical definition somewhere between the two. For me it was at first no mans land( No pun intended,,LOL). But now i consider it an elevated plain, a place where i can watch the sexual tug of war from, somewhat removed. No i wont ever again be just one of the boys, my physical differences are just pronounced enough that my old friends have already (categorized me as a freak- guys i grew up with),,.I wont be a football buddy or really want to go out in the woods with a number of men with guns. and that's cool, I am more than okay with that . For what ever reasons each of us are here. And we each to some degree have experienced the same social verdict, the same social (categorization. )Should we really have that same spirit here in even the smallest of doses? Those of you fully transitioning to women, i admire you, I feel you are blessed to be able to more fully experience this metamorphosis . And i don't feel its my place or my right to make judgements about others choices,, ones that are justified by very individual facets of their life. (Personally ) ive always shunned being drawn into groups , pressured , putting myself in a position where others could assign me A role.( Like Popeye i am what i am and that's all that i am,), Im someone looking for a place of peace to voice the feelings that accompany this time of growth,, I hope you'll always accept me, because Ive already accepted you.
